Why here, why a developing country?

There are amazing kid's that come by the building all day, they want to feed the hundreds of huge tilapia We grow here at the Church or see if there is a ripe lechosa (papaya) to eat from the Church's 100 plus fruit tree's, maybe a handful of mulberries (azuketas in Spanish) or some fermented food we have prepared from the plant's or some water that doesn't have chemicals in it, they might ask to water the trees for money for school, or they might ask us to fix their bike, we get emergencies often, a broken leg or a sick baby throwing up all over the truck, we rush and get them safely to a hospital, some are undocumented and fearful of police, some just don't have transportation, we help people get documents or locate work and so many other important things but these operations give us presence in the community, it is not why we have come, we came to return naturally selected people to evolving people. You could call it gene therapy although that sounds very egotistical, this is the beautiful human life cycle, when we stray, we die, churches thrive off broken people, so they say wait, there is a magic man coming to fix your child, pay us and wait, but that is disgusting, we can repair the children very simply, now, action is the correct response, the children have been removed from the life cycle, the soil is the human medium, and the plants with our food in them share our microorganisms, these plants do not always have our microorganisms, they are versatile, they can live with many species, but whomever is putting their waste microorganisms into the soil, their microorganisms will meet the sugars the plants are putting into the soil and we will see an explosion of that species microorganisms, if we return the children to these things they become healed, their bodies heal themselves, or another way of saying that is the microorganisms heal them, microorganisms eat protein and secrete serotonin and dopamine and our bodies use combinations of these to make happiness and motivation, they secrete a liquid your brain sits in, that must be changed completely every day, 10 billion of these amazing animals leave us each time we use the restroom, and for millions of years they have gone into the soil where we live and up into the plants and then returned to us in the food from the plants, now in your city they go to a water treatment plant and are killed with chemicals and so those people do not have happiness or motivation, their brain is sitting in waste and they become forgetful and agitated and finally violent but all we must do is return the plants with our food and oxygen to where we live, once the body trusts that there is sufficient energy for the number of people present we become whole again and so for 7 years, every day we wake up at 3 am and start work, the people at the beach are still partying so it is a clear contrast, then we do 5 hours of cardio at 5 am with a huge smile on our faces, a naturally selected person can make themselves do cardio, but their face is going to say "I am doing something hard" an evolving person is not going to feel resistance, no matter how physically demanding it is they will only be having fun, we go 4000 feet up the side of a mountain, but there is no exercise, we are standing up, occasionally snapping off pedals or chains, but to us it is just watching chickens and cows waking up, there is a big smile on our faces, but we haven't put it there, it is not intentional, evolving people love this time, this is only fun and being connected to a thousand generations before us, and this changes the people we pass, the human gene's job is to change the DNA based on the criteria met in the habitation, if it gets hotter your body responds, the human literally becomes something else. If someone becomes stronger, becomes capable of more work in front of you, your DNA must respond. And so each little town we pass the people respond, they become agitated, then some buy bikes and begin riding at the time when we pass and wave at us, they have purchased the same style bike and now we stop to talk mountain bikes, they ask why our pedals look different and we explain we have changed our bottom bracket to a hollow after snapping many square bottom brackets, we enjoy talking about mountain bikes but we are going to ask to see where they live, to meet the family, to see if they have plants where they live and to ask what they are eating, and this will translate exactly every time to the expression of the body, if they are eating rice and beans that were dried and other carbs from the store then their bodies will be shaped like the opposite sex they will have weird bulges of fat sticking out that make them look like something else than a human, now we will ask after the health and find that the kids here are sick often, they don't have enough blood and have to take pills for sugar but they will only eat sugar, we will ask if they go to the church and if so what they church is telling them to do about the children's health and then we will tell them in contrast to praying, and paying the church more money that weather they do this or not they must return the plants to the home, they must have oxygen to breathe in here, move to a house with a yard and plant human food plants, but they have not stopped us to talk about genetics, they want to talk about customizing mountain bikes, the back brakes are weaker on the sharp mountain downhill drops and we have larger disks on the back to compensate but their factory bike have stockers that won't stop a bike on these insane hills, little about the beautiful human life cycle little about their new passion, the two are connected, they are becoming something else, they are evolving in response to our stimulation, we have rode past since they were children and this has become a focal point, they were waiting for us to try to exploit someone, but we have offered free medicine and free food since they can remember, if someone needs money to ride the bus to the hospital we have carried cash for this for 7 years, every day, they just need to watch the road for when we pass, we stop in each town and do stretches, and 200 push-ups, this is gene therapy but we also are giving them the opportunity to approach us, they are timid, if we rode through fast they would not work up the nerve to talk and the baby would not go to the hospital. others don't begin the same sport, they start a new sports league, some old women start walking and doing aerobics with sticks or weights and become community leaders, getting groups of women to follow them and wave at us as we pass, connecting their beautiful evolution to our's, others resist a while, saying we are probably doing something sneaky, beat on tin with sticks and yell beware! Then the next year begin washing their motorcycle in the street at this time but look at us without blinking, expressing this activity is in defiance of our activity somehow, then training dogs with sticks they have wrapped in reflective tape when we pass, then begin showering in the street at this time while it is freezing, then finally begin walking to the next town every morning with a gentle smile as we pass, the action demands genetic response, it is inescapable, it is not the specific activity obviously, it is the consistency with the smile, in hurricanes we ride, same time, same speed, same gear, same smile, we are not starting habits, the strongest thing in the habitation is getting stronger, we went from sets of 50 push-ups in each little town to 60 then 70 then 80 then 170, and now 200 per town, we couldn't know all of the responses, but men that have not walked in decades just get up and begin walking, when we ask what has happened they say they don't know "was there a surgery? You were unable to walk, you needed help to stand, now you are walking with ease, what has made you walk again?" the response is a little bit annoyed at our questions, and they go on about their day, now able to walk, the potential is limitless, the body is amazing, we do not see the changes that are happening to us because we see our reflection so often but we are evolving, not once per generation, as this thing we do not recognize as a cult in America has taught us, in America we have been taught an understanding of the human condition that is hopelessness, our birth is a prognosis, original sin lives within us, disease lives within us and we are just waiting for these to come out, we are told our only hope is the church, we can leave the church but we have left hope, we have been taught for 2000 years, to say to an American man that is agnostic is controversial, that person is now a man who is capable of horrible things living without the only thing keeping him from doing them, to this cult understanding.

This has halted evolution for two thousand years, we are not original sin plus the demons of our fathers plus the genetic defaults of two families put together and now just waiting for misery and then death. 

We are evolving every single day. In real time. Right now your DNA is being rewritten based on the the criteria being met in your habitation, every day. If you are not being re-written into something new, it is because the math at your house has not changed, the number of human food plants you have inside your fence, the number of animals to eat, any media you consume, remember if you are watching something and not paying, you are the product being sold, this is propaganda and they are telling a candidate this will change who you are, they are paying billions of dollars to change you using media you feel is inert, innocent, there are cut girls or free information, , but they know everything you have ever clicked "like" on, the algorithms know things about you you don't yet know, thousands of people a day are finding out in tiktok that they are gay when they didn't have a clue, but if instead of planting plants or building equity your body is telling you to stare at a phone with other people shaking their asses, you are extinct, and so you are some form of a-sexuality, extinct people don't make more people, if they do, if their family was very strict about heterosexuality, then they will make a specifically deformed child but they will still be conflicted about their sex, no judgement, there is no morality in sexuality, it is just math, if there was energy to make more people where you were, your body would be telling you to build equity with your time instead of watching other people do things, we cannot teach this, it is a genetic response, your genes are not nice or compassionate, this is more like a calculator, it does not deviate. Plants, plus oxygen, minus antibiotics, times the number of the species equals people that watch other people deciding if things are cake when it is time to build health or plant more plants, and the media effects this math, if the news says everything is burning, or there are mass shootings every day, our body is counting zombies instead of humans, if you are swiping left on one thousand women in your phone in your house then your body is counting more people than are actually present, by allowing these images in, you are changing the bodies prime directive, are we evolving or are we extinct today? That is the first decision that all other decisions will be based on, Americans feel they are fighting their own bodies to do the things they want to do, you are thinking let me look at tinder to increase the likelihood of mating, I deserve it! And you are looking at breast size and how fat and symmetrical faces, but your body is looking at male nipples on females, male lips on females, male asses on females and making genetic decisions based on a criteria that is not actually in your habitation, if you walked down the street you may actually find women with female body parts, the dead women have become hyper-sexual, their bodies are trying to catch and spread disease to kull the species so they are meeting up with 3 new men a day "a girls gotta eat" the genome repeats, you are responding genetically to be more suited to survive in the new environment, or to become extinct, if there are too many of the species with too few species energies then your body will say "man I love sugar! These IPA beers, this soda pop, these bread-sticks, this pasta, I can't stop eating pasta! I just love mashed potatoes! If I wanted to, I don't think I could stop eating these mashed potatoes!" You will die of this, the heart is a pump with specification, if you walk up stairs carrying a complete other human in fat, 50 pound's of stored glucose, stored bread-sticks, stored ipa's, it only takes a hot day and you are dead, but not without purpose, your body has lied to you to get glucose into the ground, either we live with plants who convert sunlight into glucose and we put our waste into the ground which has our microorganisms and this creates an explosion of those microorganisms which causes an explosion of life in both the human and the plants, or if we forget, the second plan is we are told to eat glucose and then take that glucose and our microorganisms into the soil in our dead bodies, the result is the same, the human cares for the soil from above, or it gets into the soil. 

We are forever connected to the earth, we are pretending to be something new, something that has out-evolved the need for connection to the soil, but without it we cannot make happiness or motivation or sleep regulation or the liquid in our craniums, and so the body chooses death, but that death is beautiful human potential in the soil, there is so much microbial abundance at our church, that if we lay a dead fish on the soil, the soil will reach up and encompass it in a day like a hand reaching up and pulling it down, we are teaching people through example to reconnect to the human medium, we are doing the abnormal amount of cardio as a therapy, they are watching their bodies become sick, they are watching their kids get sick, as we become capable of more and more, their plants are dying as ours are exploding with life. 

Then we have daily sermons, explaining the human life cycle and what other energies humans require to evolve, clean oxygen, food without sugar or preservatives, microorganisms, plant partner's (The plant's with your food growing in it have evolved with you and so can use the same microorganisms as you, the plants you choose to bring home are your plant partners) and then we teach people how to tell if their bodies are choosing to evolve or become extinct. And how we can control that using math where we spend time. Plant partners vs number of species vs oxygen availability, microorganism availability, it's just math after this. We can see the results and decide what we need to add next. If children who could not pay attention begin being able to receive protector/provider information we are progressing. 

I want to take a moment and differentiate this from what you are used to, no one will ever be dependent on us for information, we are not a conduit to secret information like the cults representing themselves as your Gods in America, there will never be any other information, remove antibiotics, bring the plants home, put food waste into the soil, after that it is your personal journey and we are only sharing it, we are as likely to learn something from you, as you from us. The "church's" are saying your child's health is a secret, it is found in the church, and achieved by paying more and praying harder, but they are forever the owners, your child's health is proprietary, they are ransoming your child's health or your success, your future wife. That building is making the priests rape children, the math is bad, many of the species, zero energy for that species. My point is we are not going to be the next gate keeper, this is freedom, this journey is your own, if you want encouragement or have a question we are here but we do not want money or attention, our goal is to start you on your path and then you will be the leader of your own group of family or pears, science cannot be owned, it does not have a boss science cannot be a hierarchy or one person is deciding result, that is the opposite of science, the church has halted human evolution, for us to catch up we need to collaborate, I am currently doing everything wrong rearing tilapia, if there is a mistake I am making it, the church is being over run by rats that are eating the wifi cable several times a day, yesterday I took a 18 inch re bar to the church truck tire, half was inside and half outside but the tire was perfectly inflated and when I got to the store 45 minutes later all my passports and credit cards were gone, rolling around on the dirt changing the tire on a hot day likely just spread them out on the side of the road, what I mean to say is I am just a human, I am just one of you, I have not taken a day off in many years, I want so badly for you all to gain from this, I begin my days at 3 in the morning but it is nothing divine, I am just starting to do a bad job from exhaustion, I look forward to the days when we have a community, and one of you says "did you check temp?" "Tilapia are picky about temps" or something like that, no preservatives, bring back the plants then we all sort of start at ground level, in America if I needed to go on tv I would send someone else. I have no God complex, no desire to be the center of something, I grew up a poor nerdy kid, people looking at me feels painful, this is to be a co-op of like minded micro-farmers and I will likely need as much advice as any of the rest of you, God threw me in a box for a decade so when I got out I could see contrast, I am first but we are all the same, I don't want your money, I do not want fame. Just help me get the message to the next family please, I am sort of getting tired. But I'll be fine. Tired is good. It makes for great sleep, God is good.

To continue, we are slowly teaching people how to stimulate evolution in their bodies, in their children's bodies but many of the people are extinct, they do not want this, they are not bad, this is not morality, an extinct human is still beautiful, the need to kill is to preserve humanity when we become a threat to our own environment, there is nothing more noble than to give your life for humanity and it is understandable there is resistance to returning to evolving too early and so we have to offer consistency, our trees always have too much food, our fish tanks are always overfilled with human protein, our fridges are always overfilled with eggs from the chickens and so we always have an excess of human motivation and happiness, of coarse the people are confused about why we are doing this, when we ride past and hear one person telling another the bikes we ride are electric, indicating the 7 years of work, 5 hours a day were nothing to that person, if we are just rich people taking a joy ride past the poor for entertainment instead of damaging our bodies to become stronger in front of them to inspire genetic response, to cause new life in the people we pass. But we did not anticipate this being easy, it is so very encouraging that here it is possible, and that we see people become healed all the time, in America we were loosing, the dead were winning. The cities have been run by the dead for so long, the confidence has grown so much, each year they only want one billion more dollars, one more tiny ticket given to one million, they won't mind. But this oppression is being measured by every human genome in the city and the need to reduce the species increases.

We do not have mass murder here, there are no mass shootings yet, we now know what causes this, but if we die trying to reverse it in America then who will take our place? We are not published yet. So it is on us to preserve the information and heal a large group and then publish our work. But if we are talking about what this looks like in time, there are no discernible women in America, they are men with female genitalia and a mix up of the various other parts that feel attack when kindness is offered, you have renamed this, redefined it as femininity and declared war between the sexes, bros before hoes, men are marching in the streets screaming "no means yes and yes means anal" and have formed anti-female groups, it started in the sitcoms, the idea that once you get together you just stop having sex, that your wife just hears words you didn't say, words of attack, and that you just do what she says and ignore her, happy wife, happy life, you just leave your amazing pair bonded wife forever broken, extinct and seeking death, you just watch her commit suicide and never repair her body, then the comedians took it to the next leve,l normalizing a much stronger hatred and you laughed when it was time to respond, to put the energies she was crying out for back where she lived.

What this looks like on a daily basis is people becoming "modern" imitating an American lifestyle and their wives are becoming dead in front of their's and our eyes, Americans are spreading this diseased way of life throughout the globe, telling the people to feel shame, poor stupid black people let us white people show you the way, and then they watch as their children come out deformed, dead, watch their beautiful wife become a male, only seeking death, death by cake, death by depression, death by prescription pills, death by diet, here 7 years ago we would see a female often, more in the Haitians than than Dominicans, and now almost never, but we still have some contrast to work with, in America where everyone is dead there is little feeling of hope, it was our job to effect change from within.

In America we were trying so hard, doing this exact same research and treatment but we were just waiting for zombies to crawl in the dog door while we slept again, waiting to pick up the needles outside of the $800,000 queen Victorian so no one accidentally contracted aids, just waiting for the mass shooting, now boulder, now cherry creek, now highlands ranch again,  but not yet here, not yet, the last year we were in america a high speed chase ended in our front yard with an upside down car in our front yard, and then we understood from this stimulus how far we had traveled genetically towards becoming dead, you see we didn't even stop to get a picture, we were returning from afternoon cardio at wash park and while this neighborhood was too expensive for drug salespersons to afford housing we have not been isolated, we had no fear, no feelings, just walked up to the door as if it were a newspaper laying on the front lawn, but we understood this is effecting us on a genetic level, we have left the house partly for health equity, but also to give people genetic therapy by watching a demographic that isn't known for serious cardio hammer down hours of intense cardio every single day, sweet beautiful Sara and I look like Trailerpark people, I have a wife beater and she has hot pants but we are doing cardio more intense than the tights wearing Bros, our contribution has the potential to bring life where there was none to the genomes of thousands we pass every day, and we stop and tell them about the math where they live, but we are not immune.

I am going to stop here and sort of do a recap of this year, in a single year. The city has taken 4 of our houses over a technicality, they are saying we did not pay a few hundred dollars 3 years ago and so now they own our homes, we are of coarse saying we pay everything on-line, the system has to tell us we have an outstanding balance, you cannot hide that we have a balance and then say we have not paid it. Thirteen officers kicked down the door of Our $800,000 Queen Victorian home and interrogated us after we invoked the right to remain silent, screaming with spit landing on our faces They charged us with felony cultivation of drugs that are legal, and for the next year they are sitting outside in marked vehicles that say "Gang task force" or "organized crimes division" and they are waving at us. People are calling us after they leave saying they were abducted after leaving our home, and interrogated in the same violent manner, many men screaming at them at the same time, threatening prison, saying that Sara and I are telling them, the police that this person is committing felonies, to join the police before they will end up in prison. To tell them Sara and I are breaking the law, they have prepared a statement that says there are illegal drugs being sold and guns, all they have to do is sign and they are free. And in the morning the police are there smiling at us, waving. You do not surveil someone in a marked vehicle, criminals stop doing crime if they can see the people surveiling them, they are saying to our neighbors that we are criminals, in court the police have counted the legal drugs and photographed them but have left them in our home, for us to wait for another attack, these are legal, I have a medical licence, Sara and I do not use drugs, these are for patients in serious pain and they are locked in a safe, but if they can accuse us and build a case with legal things, then we are just waiting, feeling completely helpless, the need to protect Sara. is the strongest feeling I have ever had in my life, They want me to prove them right. They want to see a criminal. They are clicking genetic switches inside of my body, I am a Geneticist, I know this is not in my control, they are controlling my evolution now, I am becoming something against my will. We are living completely beautiful lives, there is zero immorality here, we are having an enormous amount of sex and both of us cannot believe we can just be this happy, but the zombie police officers are looking at two people just growing huge amounts of human food plants and seeing criminals, they are dead and seeing this abundance offends them, and so when we come home one day to see a drug stop police chase that is on the news has ended in our front yard, it doesn't even land anywhere on our radar, but this is Sara and I's mission, I have asked her to help me help these dead people. And now we are becoming something closer to them.

we are not winning in this place. America. And so we are here in the Dominican Republic. The police do not chase you here, and when they stop you they are not telling you to get out backwards and put your hands behind your head and smash your knees down onto the pavement, then smash your face onto the pavement with guns pointed at you, that is gene therapy, even if it doesn't happen to you, if there is a violent gang wearing blue uniforms with no laws legally abusing you and by existing in that city you are consenting to this abuse, just waiting for your turn or your child's turn, seeing reports of this violent gang every day on the TV, is gene therapy, and when one of you snaps and on a normal day texts an ex and parks a truck in front of a trump building and blows himself up, in an attempt to blow up many people, that is the correct genetic response, pay close attention please, I am not condoning with this action, but this is math, the genome is 21,000 switches, your genes can be played like an instrument, genetics and morality are two different things, genetics is an automated response to the math where you live, if you are not free, if the city decides your $80,000 home is now worth $800,000 and you need to pay $10,000 a year for "your home" to still be "your home" if you are an older man and the bathroom is occupied in a public space and you are forced to pee next to a tree out of medical emergency but you are aware that if you are caught by this gang they can put you on a list that says you rape children, and if you have a license to grow a legal plant for cancer patients, this group may or may not come and torture you and your wife at any moment, and now your life is just waiting for the thing that takes your freedom, your life, your child's life, your home, you have removed something that is genetically not workable, the cities planners are zombies, they work in a building that has bad math, many humans and zero human plants, this building has killed them and now they are saying these people are snapping every day in response to the pressures we have put them under, we must get federal aid to increase the pressures, not consciously acknowledging that the result of the increase will be obvious, these incidents are going to increase because of this increase of loss of freedom, because the federal funding will increase the amount these people must now pay for the homes they paid for to still be "their home's" knowing there will come a day when you are not capable of work and knowing this tidal wave of ever increasing taxes is going to continue to increase when you are not capable of keeping up, knowing that whatever you plan for for this period is going to go away, seeing every year they are stealing retirement funds, threatening to steal social security, the government is now closed more than it is open, they are still getting paid $174,000 a year but they have not agreed on a budget and so children are dying, old people are dying, and you know on a genetic level that child could be yours, that that old person will very soon be you. 

Today Donald Trump sent marines into LA, this is the first time in 248 years America has sent troops in to fight Americans, and now if you live in America, this has happened to your genome, now by living in America, you consent to just waiting, waiting for your government to send American troops in ti fight your family, this is genetics, this click click click is genetic switches being thrown, and this is what is causing the breaks we are seeing growing closer and closer, more pressure is not the answer, you want this to be an atack from outside, something we can fight and kill and say see! We have beat the evil! But this is the genome that lives inside of us all, there is no evil, there is just math, I can teach you how to play these genes like an instrument, but aa dea president wants death, He is in a building with many of the species and zero species energies and now he is causing death, we must repair the president before he will genetically be compelled to cause abundance.

But let me return to what this group looks like on a daily basis down here? Well we have changed our math, out of necessity, if our genome becomes anti human, well we wouldn't be much use as therapists would we? At least half of what this looks like on a daily basis is what this does not look like, we are free again, there are no taxes, for life, once you own your home, it is yours for life, if you build your home with a garden and a little store or set a little glass case outside in the street you could make enough money to pay for the tiny expenses here if everything else failed, we have 5 houses in America but every year the cities take another step, they have taken homes, we won them back but not many of you would have, you must put the homes in llc's to take their power and soon they will find a way around this, they make the laws, here the police sit on the side of the road and wave at you to stop, then you may choose how to respond, you may be compassionate, or you may choose to say "next time you see my car please just tell me to pass young man, I am not a tourist, I am nice but I have many people to help and little spare time or money" and with a little more chitchat be told to be on my way with God, Viajar Con Dios. In America if you ride a bike daily you will be hit this year. sometimes they hit your front tire while you are stopped waiting for a light, slapping it sideways bending the rim shitwhipping you to the ground but there is a second of eye contact, they are looking down at the phone and barely notice they have wandered onto the sidewalk 3 feet, the sidewalk is tapered at this part for moms to get baby carriages up etc... so it was barely felt, sometimes you are on a bike path and they have wandered 6 feet out of the lane and barely feel as they hit your handlebars, your bike takes a violent 180 degree right and you eat it into some gravel, 2 minutes later you are back on the road, now packed full of adrenaline and now remembering some blue hair barely over the steering wheel, and some times they just hit you, full on, breaking the bones and the bike frame in the same instance, they get out yelling "Oh My God I was texting, You should beat my ass! You should beat my ass! But you are unconscious and the 5 bones that go from your arm to your fingers are snapped anyhow, in a year you will need physical therapy to begin using your hand and shoulder again, but for now a $45,000 ambulance ride that the rich dad will get out of paying for, if you don't have a spare $45,000 laying around your life is over today, they just take your house, you are no longer capable of work. 

If you meet a group of bicyclists at a park and they see your ac bone sticking up, they will begin to tell you the exact same stories, blue hair, texters destroying bikes without acknowledging you exist, police interrogating you in the middle of the street, grabbing your handle bars, and you can hear these genetic switches clicking, click click click, enough clicks and a body, a body that was normal yesterday buys a gun and goes to a school, but that person is just a series of switches, we can do this to mice in a laboratory, we can make them exhibit autism, and then heal them in a day, we can make them gay murderous cannibals and then we can heal them in a day, we have played their genome like an instrument, click click click, we will soon be looking at this time in history like the stone ages, prescribing meth to children who are expressing genetically to us that there isn't enough of their species energy where they are sleeping and going to school, we are spending billions of dollars protecting crowds from 18 wheelers who are looking for a crowd of people to kill instead of looking at why this cities math is causing this to happen to it's inhabitants. We are the only ones doing this work, and so we must preserve us, one day someone in America will steal this work, they will say it was always theirs, but we do not care, we only need to restore science, the church has halted science for 2025 years, this is hopefully as far as we take this experiment. We only care that science begins again. 

So on a daily basis this looks pretty boring, we want to write grants and design studies, but there are many plants and animals to care for, and many humans in need, we have successfully freed our bodies from the genetics of American oppression, that is massive, but if we want to write a grant and 150 fish stop eating, well today we are learning why fish stop eating, and then going looking for a lost passport, lol, wake up at 3 am, write in the website for 2 hours then it is time for cardio, then  cook breakfast for all of the humans and animals, beautiful but boring to write about, several times a week there are bike failures, broken spokes, broken chains, gears not shifting, popped tires, once a month the jeepo needs somethinjg, and we arew forever washing vehicles

I want to talk to you this morning (It is 3 am, I was awakened by a dream I was stuck in a spiders web and couldn't move, but it was 2:59 am, not a nightmare, God just needed me to wake up and begin writing for you amazing people, and at 1 am I was  awakened by a dream I was immobilized by a heard of animals, but awoke to email myself the topic which came to me in a dream.) The topic is absolute 24 hour a day contentment even in the worst of times. Love that sweeps you off of your feet but an amazement at the simplest things. The sight of a tree is supposed to blow you'r mind, the sight of a cow is supposed to fill your body with so much serotonin you almost want to cry, ducks are always cute but poor Americans addicted to watching videos of baby cats or baby animals that they cab feel should make them completely overwhelmed with joy but instead they go to the next and the next, like porn or an addiction, waiting, waiting for the feeling to overwhelm them, but nothing. A human without serotonin, without dopamine, without oxygen, without purpose, who's body is trying to eat themselves to death cannot experience happiness, this life has been shaped by a cult 2000 years ago and now you are living out a nightmare of emptiness, but there is a way back! It doesn't involve joining anything new or asking a new weirdo into your body or believing in some new doctrine. We as humans have been living a simple life of pure contentment for millions of years and then a cult told a lie, it seemed innocent enough, a dead guy is going to return and then we will be happy, and then our children will be well, the lie is that this is hope, and we just need to pay the church and be quiet, go along, but this lie has removed us from happiness, as humans we have been living with plants and animals in our home, we have had a simple relationship to the soil and the plants and to these animals, every time we poop ten billion of the microorganisms that make serotonin, dopamine, endorphins and the liquid in our craniums, to name 4 of one thousand of the amazing jobs being done by these amazing animal's, the soil is where the magic happens, you see the plants have evolved to put sugar in the soil, they convert sunlight into sugar, this is mind-blowing, why? Why would they evolve to make sugar but not for themselves? You see we are not independent, we all rely on each-other, the plant is dependent on you and on the soil, the soil is dependent on you the the plant,. you are dependent on the soil and the plant, you put the ten billion seeds into the earth, the plant puts the sugar and then we see a Genesis in the soil, an explosion of life! Ten billion become ten trillion as the microorganisms eat the sugar and procreate in their natural habitat and now we see an explosion of life in the plants and then we see an explosion of life in the humans who are eating food from those plant's and caring for the plant's, this, this is where your feeling's come from, all of the things you can feel you are missing, American's are masturbating over and over, not because they are enjoying it, but because it is not working, sex is meant to be completely satiating, but this feeling of satiation is made by a microorganism and as long as our relationship is with a dead prophet instead of with the plants and the soil we are living without that microorganism, and so without that feeling.

Let me summarize a story about a king very quickly, not because I need to be quick here, it just isn't of that much consequence, the cults in America try to drag this story out, they need us to look away like a magician needs a pretty girl with big boobs covered in mirrors, this king the story goes, is unhappy, he is experiencing lots of happiness at parties but lots of sorrow the rest of the time, and he would like to feel somewhere in the middle, and so the Merlin's of the castle get together and make him a ring, the ring says this too shall pass, eye roll, now this King is supposed to look at the ring when he is happy and say enjoy this less, this will soon be gone, and look at it when he is sad and say this will also soon be gone, and these cults are telling us like the king to just live in this state of feeling nothing. They are telling us there is a voice inside our head and that once we know this voive is not our own that we can now just immagine ourselves rich or famous and it will come true, they are telling us that our supoerpower is purpose but at the same moment that purpose is empty, that this purpose will passs, and Amerina's are desparate for this answer and so every year another brand comes out, another purpose cult, masking itself in feel good stories about their followers that got rich saving orphine or got rich saving cute little baby duckies, any story that will pull at your heart strings, and next year those same people will fall for it again, I am not making fun of those people, exactly the opposite, we all know there is something missing.

Let's just examine what that story is telling us, everyone in this kings kingdom is suffering so that this one family, this one guy can enjoy this life so what does it say to us if we aren't that guy? This is supposed to be a story to encourage us vut we are killing ourselves and sacrioficing our health so that someone else can enjoy their amazing life, and so how destitute woukd a story telling us that guy ios misserable? And that like him all we can strive for is to feel less joy so that we notice pain less? This is a disgusting state to be selling people. Pure contentment 24 hours a day with constant highs is the human norm, these relationships and friendships are the relationships of extinct humans trying to get into the soil and trying to help you get in with them. We can reverse all of this amazing people! The food you are eatinmg has preservatives, which kill mivroorganisms, then we are shipping our human waste to the water treatment plant to be sterilized and sent to the landfill, your nonstick [ands are murdering microorganisms and giving you cancer and the fruits and vegitables from the store looks like human food but has zero microorganisms, it was grown with pesticides that killed tem all, but it was not grown with a human waste and so there was no way for the soil to multiply human microorganisms, they most likely used only chemical fertilizer but if they used feces it would have been from another animal as human poop has pfas from our nonstick pans and antibiotics from processed food, YOUR POOP KILLS PLANT"S AND ANIMALS"S PEOPLE! LET THIS BE A WAKE UP CALL!! What is coming out of you is dangerous to life on earth, after it did it's damage to you, you are only not dead because of modern medicine but you wouldn't need it if this "modern life" wasn't murdering you, Christianity and Catholicism are a plague spreading across the earth, missionaries go to a black town that has perfect health offering shame for their skin color and culture, convert them, and then introduce them to modern medicine, which they will now be in need of and then leave, and these people begin to die as they begin this new lifestyle with no relationship to the plants and to the soil. Now they are looking to the sky for health, begging for a mirracle from the church when they had perfect health and happiness when they were caring for the human life cycle.

Our Goal is to heal every human on earth, but that is not very scientific, there are 8 billion people on earth and energy for only 3 billion, for the planet/humans to survive we are watching a mass extinction and so as scientists we must hypothesize, and then again, based on the results from the previous, nearly every American is extinct, dead, walking around but feeling attack from their mate and from family and friends and eating foods that will kill them, but this is everyone else's existence, so it seem's normal, they are "normalizing" all of this in the culture, constantly reassuring each other that a suicide by food and inactivity and a marriage with no sex is completely human, but of course it is only normal if you stay in this one fish bowl, if you leave America, submerge yourself into an evolving culture and come back, this looks insane, when you get off of a plane you can feel it like walking into the exhaust of a bus, and you now understand why these people are committing mass shooting's, the need to become extinct is in every comedians jokes, every sitcom for 50 years, married people don't have sex, married people don't procreate, when they find a perfect mate they are compelled to just argue instead of procreate, this is normal, this is normal, but the man that pulls up in front of the trump hotel in an Elon Musk flammable vehicle with a truck full of every day explosives cannot see one more show telling this lie, Ross never gets the girl, all relationships are horrible and then end, no one ever get's the girl, they get a horrible woman instead, Raymond's wife and children think he is an idiot and his brother is an adult male perpetually living with his parent's, Kevin is the fat idiot to his wife, he hides candy from her and every episode He does things that make her need to insult him, his actions are making you invested in this, the show is manipulating you to feel a second hand justification for a woman needing to berate a man, or vice verse, and all of them spend all of their time working for some one else and afterwards just socializing, they're at the bar every day, they're at the coffee shop every day, they're on the couch complaining and "playfully" fighting and drinking beer, with preservatives (antibiotics that kill your microorganisms) eating bread full of antibiotics, drinking soda with these preservatives that make us incapable of making human motivation, human happiness, human sex and chemicals that cause cancer just to slightly change the color, always eating packaged food with antibiotics, no one is ever in a garden caring for edible animals, caring for the plants, caring for the human medium, the soil, they have pretty plant's with no human food in them if they have any, this is normal, this is normal, The bomber has a sort of a bland genetic expression, not very specifically male, no lip's, no cheek bones, no chin, very American, the women that are available also have no sexuality, no lips, just like a sheet of paper with a slit to speak, this is normal, this is what everyone looks like so this is normal, this is normal, there is no butt on his girlfriend or any of the other women available, the breast has a male nipple, the height suggests masculinity, the hands are closer to a mans sized hand, the feet, the eye lashes are male, the face structure is male, she has love handles, she wants to be bent over, she craves for men to desire this, but she is the size of a male, she has no butt and love handles and so bent over she of coarse looks like a male, she can make her face appear feminine, it takes an hour and she has to push her mouth out like a duck and put on fake eye lashes, she wears spanks, to try to force her body to look female, when she takes photos to attract a male she uses lighting and camera angles to make it appear she has a butt, she uses one finger to pull at the skin under her butt to make it appear there is a line separating the leg from her butt, but there isn't, and when she tricks a man this way then she takes her clothes off he is looking, where did it go? This was not a cute extra, it was a necessity, a woman with no evidence of "right to procreate" produces deformed children, she is half male and can only sit on a couch 50 year's, she hear's things men did not say, He say's "babe I put the clothes away" and she cries and says "you mean you never loved me and never wanted children with me?" And America say's you know how women are, you know, this is normal, this is normal, this is normal, if you change relationship it will just be another male with breasts that hears words of attack no one said, and the bomber who shares the exact same genome as every one of us texts his ex, his relationship with the ex lasted 3 years and now he is with the new woman for 3 years and has a daughter and now this relationship is ending the exact same way as the last one and the last one and the last one and he tells her, he has no issues with either trump or elon musk, He feel's like batman or halo in this huge truck and then he shoots himself in the head and pushes a button igniting a homemade bomb hoping to kill as many other people as possible inside of this densely populated cement building, this is the correct response, this is the only response, if we put a group of humans in a laboratory under these circumstances and run a simulation a thousand times, we will get  the exact same response, only the person that snaps will change, good credit score, great job, great condo, great relationship, neighbors love him, ex loves him, wife loves him, daughter loves him, everything normal one day and then a switch goes off, click! It isn't a bad human waiting to show true colors, every one of us has had the exact same genome for 300,000 years, if you live in America with no plant's and no edible animals having the exact same relationship over and over and over watching show's about people that express hatred for each-other masked by slight humor, or reality show's about rich women pulling each-others hair out over a wine stain or weather or not something is cake, 5000 episode crime show's where the police officer is abusing the public, but he is justified by the anger toward the public criminal's, but you aren't the police, you are in fact the public, this is as likely to be you as anyone else, we know if we separate any species from their medium using antibiotics they become a-sexual and then murder each-other to extinction, we did this to animals in laboratories 49 times in a row, there is zero question as to what this response will be, in its human life cycle, the human body is amazing, self diagnosing, self healing, there is no such thing as cancer. If we put any cancer cell on a wet slide with human white blood cells, the white blood cells will kill the cancer every time, when your body chooses extinction it welcomes cancer, curing the cancer is null, we must make the host body choose life, or it will just seek out death elsewhere, Your bodies/your children are not suffering from depression, diabetes, asthma, lack of concentration, allergy and obesity, their body has become naturally selected. But we can change this selection by simply returning air and food and chemical free water or reducing the species in a place. Our goal is to treat as many as we can and publish the information, so everyone can have access, this cure was common knowledge for million of years, it is the human condition, religion has set us back for 2000 years by saying "accept being broken, pay the church and wait for a prophet to fix you" We are not opposed to the church or their prophet, but we have had the ability to repair these things for the entire 2000 years. We are Appalachian. if an Appalachian child can't pay attention or is exhibiting a mixed sex we just understand we have exceeded the number of people and need to spread out or increase the species energies. Science is egotistical, idiots naming things after themselves, thing's they claim to have invented, things that were there for billions of years, but our million year old human science can be such an amazing tool! These aren't magical mystical ghosts we are waiting on, we can take a soil sample and see if you have microorganism abundance, we can take a water sample and see immediately if the water your child is drinking is killing microorganisms in their tummy that cure them of disease and do a thousand other jobs, we know microorganisms are leaving us, 10 billion every time we go to the restroom, and we know we need them, the blank we must fill in to cure humanity is "What is the pathway back into our bodies?" Nearly every American has been naturally selected for death, but it is each city copying the next, we just have to get this basic information into those city planners hands. Into everyone's hand's.

Nearly every conflict on earth can be traced back to this one problem, when we separate from the microorganisms that create serotonin (happiness) and the fluid in the cranium, there are 998 other health problems but these two alone make a person fearful, paranoid, there is now a perceived plot against this person. These religions saying one persons God is different from another persons God combined with this separation from the microorganisms from eating preserved foods, which has antibiotics which kill all microorganisms, is making these groups fight. God is in everything but the feeling of Gods hand is created by microorganisms in your gut, once we teach people this they're welcome to form their own opinions about God, but the idea that one persons God has more right and must be defended is just arbitrary, silly.

We must get this message to the world, God is palpable, he is massive and awesome, we can feel his amazing hand in every area of our lives! I have gone through so many crazy situations saying "Why? This doesn't make any sense, this is suffering with no point!" And one day you see someone has put you through exactly what was necessary to create more humility and at the same time more strength somehow. I began stupid and yet proud, weak but confident. When what was needed was a Far far more confident strength, a strength that was based on overcoming every manner of adversary. That feels very much orchestrated. And I choose to believe that is God, but it is not a different God than a Hindu God or a Muslim God, there is one Orchestrator, speaking through microorganisms in human stomachs, the idea that in one place there is a black God and a white one is nonsense that is dividing us, we are the same species in the same space sharing the same microorganisms, there is only one entity speaking to these humans. We must get off the preservatives and unite, we have real adversaries, we don't have the energy to spare. one person thinks the bank is out to get them and the other thinks the soccer coach has it out for his 5 year old, each are considering drastic retaliation when children are dying of starvation, their stomachs are full but the food is the poison so they're still starving, but we are considering attacking someone because we have not changed the liquid in our cranium. This is what humanity is facing. We must bring home the plants. My beautiful people.

Let' s meet the thing inside of us, in America we are mislabeling this, we are trying to give this a psychological nomenclature, the id, the superego, the subconscious, these are all incorrect. Science has yet to name this system. We must acknowledge it is clever. humans are born, we learn to use our eyes, then learn to count and speak and then go to school and specialize in just one thing, we die without a full understanding of what is happening, one day our new's tells us coffee cures cancer and the next day that it causes cancer. But this system inside of us has been alive for billions of years straight, it is fully aware in your mother, it is fully aware inside you in the womb, and it is making decisions based on math inside the house where your mother is spending time, how much food in the plant's, how much water without chemical's, how much oxygen from plant's, it decides weather you will be a boy or a girl, then it measures the energy where you will be born and decides if you will express procreation, if you will be a girl with full pouty lips to attract a male, or a girl with paper thin lips, everything is math, there is no morality in sexuality, there is no chance, this thing can rewrite your DNA from scratch every single day, it is evolution, we do not get one chance at evolution, every day your body responds to the stimulus where-ever you are, we see people that struggle with their weight their entire life move to a new location and suddenly become thin without trying, we see women with a male nipple their entire life change social situations and in response suddenly change their DNA and grow a different colored large female nipple. lifelong love handles suddenly disappear, illnesses seemingly miraculously come and go, and "modern medicine" "modern science" is placating us with some bland answer, taking your blood pressure 5 times and measuring your height over and over so you think they're doing something, then you're dead. No, your literal DNA is being rewritten in response to the energies where you spend time, one person feels a funny feeling and has come to trust it, they stop and realize something inside of them is reminding them they forgot something, another person walks out of the house with their keys inside and looses the job again, and finally finds the keys in a room they have not been in in years. Becoming aware of this system is praised in awareness cults, now you own it because you can see a voice inside you! But that is silly, the person that looses the keys or is reminded doesn't change their designation by seeing anything, it is simple math. If there is enough species energy where you are, your body deems you to have the "right to live" if you are caring for enough soil with your human energies, your body says "remember the keys, or remember the business meeting". And if you don't care for the soil it puts you to sleep, and now your body picks up the keys and walks into a room you have not been in, or places some item that causes a fight, or makes a banking error, or drinks a shot of alcohol that causes a blackout, and that one thing will cause your death eventually, unless we change the math, going to decades of rehab or chemotherapy fighting our bodies for life is a completely worthless use of life, you will die of the treatment or the cigarettes at the meeting just the same, no, we must become alive, we must change the math. Then this system will be on your side. We must return to our life cycle, we care for the soil from above the soil or your body tells you you love sugar, and then puts you, and the sugar you have stored, into the soil, to repair it. 

We just teach you, human math. People that are taught there is something scary inside of them are obviously fearful, this system is absolutely incredible! But it's requirement's are simple and defined. With a little education anyone can diagnose, if a child can't pay attention in a home, we don't have enough food in plant's, oxygen from plant's, chemical free water, if we put these things back the child will be able to pay attention again. Understand the child not paying attention is a simple diagnostic tool but that signifies the body has chosen extinction, and so inside we are re-writing DNA to very efficiently kill this child, the child is going to hear a voice say "I like sugar and dangerous thing's are fun" and the amount of sugar that child is going to consume is going to be staggering, a barrage to his organs that will quickly result in a terminal diabetes, if we attempt to fight this system we will fail, this child's body has 10 different plans for death at the same time but curing this child is just math. reduce the species, and/or increase the energies, dead people say "I can't" but once we consider the alternate is death of the child and the caregiver, we assign more importance and once we begin therapy the child and the caregiver's DNA begin being re-written and they begin to feel more capable, a large property in the middle of a city seem's financially impossible, one million dollar's, only for the super rich, door closed, but an acre of land one minute outside of that city is $20,000 if you don't have that, the mortgage would be $50 a month, we must restructure how we think about where we live and raise children. A house should be almost secondary, a small bed enclosure for an entire family that spends the majority of time with the plant's. My living space is 7 by 7 but it is just where I sleep.

Most of you are probably dealing with some mixed feelings about God, the religions are telling us to stay broken, that we simply don't have enough faith and that tomorrow if we have more faith (and keep paying their bills) that we will become magically rich and healed, that our child will pay attention, and that is the betrayal, it is not between you and God, the fact is we cannot have a group of hundreds of people meeting where there are no human plants and trees without causing death, all of these cults have men violating children, and they are not killing these men, they're making situations where these monsters that deserve death can continue to destroy your child, there is no God there, there is no God that is telling you to hide your true identity to conform to some mainstream idea of who you are, if your parents took you to a building that had no human food in the plant's, that building triggered asexuality by having too many of the species in a habitation with no human energies in it, a building on top of compacted human medium for the sole purpose of triggering the death of your child? We all have the right to be furious, but that was not God, God is palpable, we cannot hear any communication while we are eating antibiotics.

Preservatives in our packaged foods, our farm vegetables and restaurant foods are killing the microorganisms inside of us and so killing us. 

The job of the human is nurturing the life cycle, taking care of a piece of land where we sleep and spend our days, where we put our waste into the soil and have trees and plants with our food in them, these plants turn sunlight into sugar and when the microorganisms leaving you meet the sugar from the plants there is an explosion of life, the ten billion microorganism's that leave you become ten trillion! And then there is an explosion of life in the plants, and then in the people! Those microorganisms make dopamine they make serotonin, they make the fluid in your cranium which must be changed out 100% every day, if we are not in this life cycle our body chooses to put us into the soil, there are simply insufficient energies to support human life at your home, but if we return the plants and the soil health, God communicates with us through these little animals, they produce the feeling of happiness, one species eats protein and secretes serotonin, your feeling of happiness, another eats protein and secretes dopamine, your feeling of motivation, and now that they have abundance of these they can start giving you dopamine up the Vargas nerve to your brain, and an idea, and when you do Gods work, you receive serotonin, happiness, and then more motivation. And so once we get this pathway for these amazing animals to return to us and we begin hearing again our job becomes slightly opening every door we come across, and seeing how we feel, God gave me a huge successful business making insane money but he told me this is not your destiny, this is a means to your destiny for 5 years, after the 5 years many employees had become dependent on the company but I became violently ill, my 6 year old dog became ill, my girlfriend became ill, everything I touched went bad.  The business burned, God had not left me. He was communicating with me.

I feel myself driven towards an end that I do not know. As soon as I shall have reached it, as soon as I shall become unnecessary, an atom will suffice to shatter me. Till then, not all the forces of mankind can do anything against me.”
― Napoléon Bonaparte

There it is, I could find you a thousand quotes in humanity, I feel myself drawn to a goal I do not know. Our job is to get to know that feeling, we cannot allow our past identity or peoples idea of who we are supposed to be shape us, we must stay humble and fluid, but with all humility due, I believe the goal of each of us is much much simpler, we have strayed so far from humanity that my path of being destroyed over and over to bring me to this point where I can bring you this simple, simple message, is not yours, you don't need to suffer, your child's path is not to live through devastation after devastation until our true path is finally revealed, I truly believe if you buy a small piece of land outside of town, grow sustainable human food plants, put your waste into he ground and find an ethical means of transportation that our purpose is something from that land. sharing this message with others, letting people see your body become healed, see your child become attentive and healthy and then watch as one of your micro-crops becomes so abundant and so beautiful that people say "hey I want that, I want to give you a lot of money for that" I don't believe any of our purpose is sitting at some desk in a building with thousands of people and zero human energies, that is death. once you get that tiny piece of land you will need almost nothing to thrive! After that it could be anything, I made a couch out of logs and rusty rebar and people came and said they would pay me thousands to make them one, I have one job, helping you amazing people, so I can't build furniture, I believe God gave me that experience just to share with you amazing people, a Haitian friend one day asked me for my kitchen sink, I was embarrassed but sort of wiggled my way out of the conversation, it was equity, not the shallow double stainless steel sink, the deep one, with the good metal that doesn't get spots, but it festered, God made the embarrassment grow and so I removed the sink, I gave it to her, I couldn't afford a new sink so I brought in rocks from the yard and began making a free sink, I gave the sink a waterfall for one basin and a hose with an outdoor style spray gun, I attached a log to the handle, I didn't finish any of it, no varnish, no sealer no epoxy, these are live rocks and live wood, full of trillions of microorganisms that have been protecting us from pathogen for millions of years, to wash the dishes you must touch live rocks and live wood, and when you turn on the water you hear a babbling brook inside your home and again the wealthy people immediately offered to pay me to build them one (the church is in the Caribbean, we were only surrounded by very poor people living in campo's but the wealthy are now building all around us) I must focus on getting this message to you amazing people, but I love this idea for those of you about to plan a new life, I do not feel comfortable being the center of something new, I would prefer to build couches that last forever and never need new cloth, to spend the rest of my life just building beautiful sinks that teach people to bring the microorganisms back into their home, but this is how God work's, something that seem's very inconsequential become's your destiny! You may have a beautiful sign outside selling a very equitable service, you have a web-sight and an office and a very professional business plan and then God happens, our job is staying fluid, listening, dead people go all in on every idea, dumping every bit of equity into every ponzy scheme that comes by, the solid idea is that your income will come from your property, that God provides, after that make a plan but stay open, the Japanese pay huge amounts of money for vegetables that we don't have and so a new micro-farmer may say hey let me grow specifically for that industry but end up making 6 figures selling couches made of garbage that quite frankly I was embarrassed for people to see at first. American's are not hearing a voice, this voice comes from the vargas nerve, a thousand species of tiny animals make up more than half of your DNA, once you get off of the antibiotics you will begin to hear!

Let me tell you a horrible story. 

Now it is 2025, I am 54, the nightmare is over but I am not yet ready to trust it, I am an old nerd, I live in the Caribbean, there are beautiful women everywhere, they want to get drunk and fool around but I mostly ride my bicycle and work, God has called me to begin a new religion, the world has become dead, everyone around me are zombies, they are walking around and saying words but the words don't mean anything, they are being told by a voice inside their head to eat tacos and drink beer and have sex till they die of those things. I am worth over 2 million U.S. dollars but my bike is sort of a pos, it is a 15 year old trek, some rich people put it on the deck of a catamaran and the salt welded a lot of the parts together, the frame is the only original part left, the forks have been changed to a dual crown meaning the tubes on the left and the right of the wheel continue up to the handle bar, this is an aggressive stance for serious downhill riding, I have changed wheels 3 times, in a panic, I have broken so many spokes and adjusted the spokes until the wheels are just no longer serviceable, there are no bike shops here, I have to get the parts from america, it takes me a week to get a part and I ride every day, the ride is very important to me. I run tubeless, like a motorcycle, it is sort of a pain in the ass, the tires are flat in the morning, but I have a liquid in the tires that seals up lots of flats automatically, zombies put things in the road occasionally, they don't have a specific plan, their minds work more on instincts and random ideas, they don't necessarily know the goal is death, no one sees themselves as a dead person, really liking tacos is just their preference, their personality in their minds, I have some runner inserts so I can "run flat" for a while, I ride 4000 feet up at 5 in the morning and right at the top there is a little town where they put little metal shavings in the road, they beat on the tin siding of a house and say beware of me occasionally, I don't know the specifics, they speak a weird  Spanish up in the hills, it is degraded, like the american south zombies, it sounds normal to them but no one else can understand. I don't like them being able to cripple me this easily, they are not typically fast moving, they meander, mumbling, mostly that it is hot, often times when it is in fact cold, words have stopped being relevant, it reminds them of the old times. I'm not particularly fast, I have a girls bike at the house, when I jump on this bike it feels like a feather, I'd be a lot faster on this, but my bike is heavy, it has a rack over the back wheel and a heavy pannier bag with an electric pump and a full spare tire and tube, tools and full rain gear, I have had to walk home pushing this bike for 2 hours or more, this is not fun, but my riding philosophy has always been to ride heavy, if you are out there for exercise why the fuck would you have a bike you can pick up with one finger? Get a huffy, get some work in. My top speed is 53 kph, I don't know how many mph that is but that is moving when going around blind corners on a bike, I have changed transmissions many times, the bike started life a 21 speed, then it was 9 then 11 now it's 8 but the 6 gear is unusable, I am running a 11 speed chain on an 8 speed cassette, it gives me an extremely precise shift, when I shift under full torque it sounds like a hammer hitting an anvil, but 6 is useless, obviously 6 is wider than the other gears, this wasn't obvious a few years ago, I had the opinion that I was going through cassettes very quickly, I snap a rear axle about every 3 months, I go through a freewheel about that often and I shear off a right pedal about the same, but never a left, in 54 year's never a left. I have changed the gears so that I can still push at top speed going down hills, I was frustrated by not getting exercise half the ride but I finally got the gears right, I had to mash down a little spot in the frame to make space for the larger sprocket, I used a spacer on the bottom bracket but the chain ring was too far out and I couldn't get into the lower gears. 

One of the bolt's for the rack wiggled itself out of the frame, I replaced it but the bolt I found was too long and so there is a nut as a spacer, the other side has done the same thing but I have used bailing wire to snug it back up for now, I use this rack to bring back 55 pound bags of chicken and fish food, I have a nice truck but it is not ethical to use fossil fuels to move my body unless it is an emergency. I do drive once a week to the city to get medicine and food for my little church, we just couldn't do what we do paying local prices, but I like bringing the chicken food on the bicycle, I am studying these people, I am seeing if I can bring a mass back to life, gene therapy on a large scale, I do 5 hours of cardio in front of these people every day for 8ish years, never a day off, if it is a hurricane I am there, if I am sick I am there, same time same cadence. It bothers them. It is supposed to. 

Men that are daily blackout drunks ask me angrily if I need a ride as they pass me in  their cars and I say "It was cardio yesterday and it will still be cardio tomorrow" with a roll of the eyes, they want me to stop to address them, they need me to stop, and then something breaks, and they become sober athletic people, did I do this? Well that's the tricky part about science isn't it? There are 1000 factors we have no control over. I am studying the effect on a group and I am applying more than one treatment to see what works, the human lifetime is short, I only have another 20 years to see what brings people back from the dead. I don't even have a solid method of telling who is who, and I really don't spend any time with any of these people, it is just me passing them on a bike yelling good morning, have a nice day. I want to help a lot more but the things that I am trying are labor intensive, I am growing about 100 trees and 40 is chickens and around 100 tilapia fish, my life is a stage, I didn't plan all of this, if there is a God then he is doing most of the planning, I absolutely intended to study a group of people, to see if I could make changes on a much larger scale but so much of this had nothing to do with me, my house is 7 levels crawling up the side of a stone mountain side. the people below and above have porches facing my home, the people above are wealthy people with an ocean view and I am below them and so as I clean the pool and the fish filter and hang my daily clothes to dry on the rope on my roof under the solar panels they are there looking down, the poor people across the street do not have an ocean view, and so their patio faces the road between us, and then my home, and so I have zero privacy, if someone stops by I will be asked about it later, these people don't have anything to do, they are there 24 hours a day just watching. If a girl stops by asking for work the people construct one story and then the next, then they try to involve me in the story, I just keep moving, feed the chickens change the water in the dinner plates for the chicks, sweep the miles of sidewalks from the weeks leaves, 5 hours of cardio, make breakfast for everyone, but this is all on display, they never move, if one runs to town for a half hour there are still 7 and they replay what the missing one missed, it is annoying but it is perfect. I have a full scientific study, I don't have the controls I would like but I am able to take any human and show them 5 hours of cardio, human health equity being built in front of their eyes, sufficient human food in the trees and plants and edible animals, a body of water free from chemicals sitting wide open, teach them to sit an pay attention to these things, to spend time with the plants, letting their hands be autonomous touching what comes naturally, and they will begin to change genetically, their body will begin change shape, then their appetite will change, they crave different foods, and then they crave exercise, this isn't comfortable, they are rebelling, they are annoyed with me and so they want a different cardio, different foods, no one wants to be a robot, a copy of someone else and so my choices are wrong but unanimously their choices now become protein where before it was a carb based diet. I do not care what people eat, I am not the one that can't wait to go to the restaurant to announce "I am a vegan!" or something and then wait for applause, I grew up constantly embarrassed, I order the glass of water in a rocks glass, so it looks like a beverage, I order the wings without flour and without sauce with a side of mayo and hot sauce and some beautiful veggies cooked over an open flame with little burn marks on them, but I know the staff, I have a restaurant as well, we travel in the same circles, and so I don't have to say what I am having, I ask after their family and friends and they say wing's? and I nod, zero carb, zero attention, but this is what I ate as a child, this is not a diet, diabetes is the storage of something foreign, something Appalachians just don't eat, we didn't understand why Americans were doing this, and now we do, these people are dead, they're very focused, they're putting themselves and sugar into the soil to repair it, and now this person I am sharing time with has transformed, from dead into alive, now the choices they make will be defined as alive and not Steven, they have felt pain and discomfort, when your body changes it is not fast like a werewolf in the movies, it takes a few weeks, when your body re-writes your DNA and now your body changes it aches, it itches, when you have a cast and your body is mending the skin and bones you are sticking silverware up itching at it, during this time they feel they very much need to be where I am, but that is not normal or comfortable to suddenly feel so reliant on someone, and so there is resistance, these men that pass me during cardio are expressing anger but these are not gay men, they have wives but are suddenly finding themselves focused on a man, something a man is doing is very focal in a change that is happening against their will on a genetic level, male confusion is expressed through anger, do you need help! (angry face, yelling) these people spend time near me and experience these changes then leave and change back, but of coarse this is not me, I am saying with my exercise "I am evolving" in a place where people unanimously are expressing "We are extinct" "I love tacos and beer" "Me too" "Me too" "Me too" "I'll have water and wing's with zero sugar and veggies without sugar sauce" it is subtle and yet monumental, it is evolution or extinction, dying for the reparation of the earth is very noble, the right to begin evolving again feels very dangerous, there are too many, we are supposed to take this decision very seriously. 

But we have not understood the choice, America is a cult, we have left England angrily, we are not free to worship whom we like! But we change nothing, we bring the cult with us, we are still waiting for a magic man and eating tacos and drinking beer, while the stupid hillbillies are in the mountains hugging trees and surely having sex with their sisters. And we the Appalachians are shocked and confused to enter a "modern" city, living with no air to breath, eating things that will cause death in a short time, barely able to walk under their own power.

First let me tell you everything turns out OK, the murderer is dead now, the crooked police have finally stopped harassing me, I am 54, I live in front of the ocean in the Caribbean, I own 5 homes in America and 4 apartment's and a restaurant here in the same building as the church, I am not married yet, God need's me to work every waking moment still, but my life is beautiful and I am surrounded by beautiful women, my time will come when people know God's word's. I couldn't have come to this point unless God let me go through what is coming next. I would have been busy, with kids and parking tickets etc... All of us needed one of us to go through this, this information is in all of our DNA and anyone would have found it if we went through the same circumstance, God chose me for this, a family would have been much easier, but I am still young, after I help you amazing people I will relax, for now it is 2 in the morning and I feel I am late for work, lol 

OK it is the 1990's I went to University in Berkeley California for bio-psychology, I work at the local homeless mission with mentally traumatized people in Denver Co, bio-psychology is not psychology but then and now this is a young field with few paying jobs. Then and now, Denver Co has laws against panhandling, but openly, on national news they feel very progressive in announcing they don't enforce them, creating a constant typhoon of homeless people entering the city that the city chooses not to control, this warrant's billions in federal relief and the city has become addicted to that money, and so now 35 years later it is the same, if the city were congruent in their laws and actions, these people would not be in danger, as it stands regular people are getting caught up in arbitrary law's meant only for violent homeless predators, we have intentionally enticed to the city to gain federal funds, the city is a trap, for example if you pee outside in Denver you get put on a list as a child sex offender, you go to jail for a day but you get out a sex offender, you loose your job and can't get another one, and so you are now homeless permanently unless you have a huge support structure but Denver has legalized drugs, people with huge support structure is not who we are enticing to come live here. Denver also has a law that if someone calls with a question about a suspicious noise, the law requires that someone be taken to jail for domestic abuse, so a person who is watching a loud movie goes to jail for domestic abuse and comes out a wife beater and looses their job and now is unhireable and so homeless, they are now a wanted criminal because they can't afford pretrial services, domestic abuse classes, urine analysis etc... and so the justice system and the city services are overwhelmed with a constant flow of people who's lives just ended because they peed outside or watched a loud movie, on top of the people coming in seeing that a wealthy city doesn't enforce their own laws when it comes to transient people. So serving the public should be this noble enterprise but in Denver it is just a constant typhoon, a wave 100 foot tall just crushing us, we are never making a difference, whomever we help will just be replaced by 10 new faces tomorrow, no matter how young you are, no matter how pure of heart, how well intended, you will be crushed into a zombie, dreading going to this place and saying "next" with all the enthusiasm of a flu shot. 

It is not seen as a New York or a Detroit but the residents say "welcome to Denver, come on vacation, leave on probation" When you get a traffic ticket in this state they give you 20 some charges, but reassure you most of these will be dropped, and now it is normal for you to negotiate for your freedom, it is not weather you are or are not guilty of something, if you plea guilty to this and this we will drop 16 charges! Now you feel grateful for being found guilty of something you did not do. There is an elite class that is excused from this. Everyone else lives in constant fear.

I run for around 4 hours a day, early in the morning, I have done this since I was 11, my house is very humble at this time in the 90's, 3 bed 1 bath in a 1970's neighborhood with short, chain link fences, it's a duplex, I rent the other side, I am finishing the basement, adding a bathroom, bedroom and family room, I have 6 vehicles but they are not mine per se, We help homeless people get jobs and then we get them in a car we bought at an auction for $100ish and fixed something minor, or cleaned up the title, I have a motorcycle, two dirt-bikes, sand-rail, two snowmobiles, ski-boat, camper, hot tub, I am constantly involved in the neighborhood activities, political, fundraising, helping the elderly, but the thing that inspired the most change in people is running, every morning 4 hour's of cardio before anyone was awake, they're waking up as I am finishing up, I don't tell people about it, I don't try to prod people into exercise, I am a social figure, but we grew up too poor to imagine taking part in society, being in public meant being embarrassed, so it feels very weird to me, this is uncomfortable, I would prefer privacy, and this is my only private time, 4 in the morning, just me, the animals and the sound of my feet hitting the soil, my life has been a constant struggle, a fire has had to exist inside of me, my family didn't pay bill's, so shelter was not permanent, it was a house that wasn't quite livable, then a family members couch, then a new, discounted house that we just needed to remove the old wallpaper, fix the lath and plaster, remove some blood, fix the wiring, fix the plumbing in the local murder house that no-one else want's to live in, and then another. 

Food was another constant embarrassing struggle, going as a family to pretend to look at cars at a dealership to get free hot-dogs, being on the local new's as the family that gets the free thanksgiving dinner at our church, having different color tickets for our lunches that signified we were the poor kids, and then not having anything, just sitting in a lunchroom full of children, normal children eating while I just sit, trying to disappear, the idea of participating in social activities was too embarrassing to conceive, at church the other families would bring name brand cookies and candies when it was their turn for snacks, but our family would be a no-show or a guaranteed trash-bag full of popcorn with no butter or salt, it was just constant embarrassment, too small clothes with a hole in the most embarrassing spot, shoes that were both a dumpster find and too small, my toes are permanently curled under my foot from wearing never-ending painful shoes, my body isn't helping, my family is 4 beautiful people and then me, and they let me know this constantly, their belief in how attractive they are seems hinged on my belief of how unattractive I am, and it isn't a difficult task, I am growing faster than anyone else around me, all at once, it feels as though one limb is shooting out faster than another, coaches are exited to have a kid that's larger than the rest but are disappointed to find out the coordination's wonky at best, when I talk to a girl and it goes poorly I return home to discover I grew a massive zit in the middle of class just to embarrass myself, there is no money for dating, there is no time and the girls haven't the slightest interest, it is set, so I started working at 11, by 14 I had 3 jobs, men's job's, and I tell my parent's one rainy afternoon "I am quitting school, there are no opportunities here, you go to school to get a job, I already have 3" I rehearsed this nervously, but I didn't need to, they of course said yes, too quickly. 

I chose to stay in school mostly because I could feel this was the wrong genetic response, we were becoming something less, generation after generation, instead of something more, this later was why I chose to study genetics in university, I didn't attend high school much after that, I was working, but I graduated with a letter in sports and academics, (I paid some other kids to turn in papers occasionally) 

I am seeing my family differently at this time, luckily I have finished growing at 11, I am 6-3 185 pounds and now my parents seem like children to me, they are attractive young people, but they don't clean up after themselves, when they do buy food they don't put it away, so half of the food spoils on the counter, then they open things and just leave them out, if they put it in the fridge it is in an open package so the cheese is either crusty in the fridge or green on the counter, the milk is always bad, the bread is stale, it is inedible, the end of the plastic bread sleeve is flimsy, literally any action could have sealed it, twisting it and replacing the twist tie or the plastic c clip, folding the end under the bread, setting a filthy utensil over the end, pushing it up against anything so it smashes closed, but in my house it is as though someone every single time has taken time to secure this thing the maximum amount open possible so that the bread in our home is always a facade, you think you have food and then your heart sinks as you round the corner and see the end is of course... 

We have the discount store trash bag sized tortilla chips, yay! We can make microwave nachos till someone leaves the cheese out to rot then we can have a gross snack with mustard or mayonnaise, but of coarse someone opens the bag, grabs a handful and leaves the bag wide open, and now the entire bag is rubber, inedible, full of ants, and then it is black, no one want's to deal with it, rotting food is now just sitting inside the home, this represented life for a week, human health equity, and now humans actions have made this represent human death, we are struggling against ourselves, what is going wrong with the genes in these people that are making them battle their own bodies?

I am constantly going in the fridge cutting the rotten portion off everything and putting it in a plastic bag, we don't have zip-lock or Tupperware, but we have the grocery store bags, millions of them, this is possible, the pizza from last nights party is open but I throw out what has gone bad, close it and get it in the fridge, the party cake is open but cake goes bad from the open bread, you cut off the crusty part and get the lid on and get it in the fridge, slice 5 sides carefully off the green and crusty cheese, grocery bag, fridge, the hot-dogs are left out, the ones on top are crusty that's perfect dog food, the ones below were somewhat protected, get them into some water to re-hydrate and we might just have a foodsimily in a few day's, take the gross part off of the open mayonnaise and put the rest away, fingers crossed, throw 5 pounds of chips away hoping to get down to fresh ones.

The trash is always overfilled, smelling like rotting milk, rotting eggs. The trash is already all over the floor but the people aren't ready to just throw trash onto a floor, heavens forbid. Oh God, what would hat say about us? No, they will try for all their might to balance this piece of trash onto some ledge and then quickly leave before it has the chance to hit the ground. 

The products are always gone, I use a pea sized drop of toothe paste, everyone else is putting tooth paste from end to end like in the commercial, I can't imagine how this must feel, a mouth full of tooth pasts, like a spoonful of ice cream but tooth paste, my folks aren't making alot of money and are spending most of it on a socil life outside the home but no one could keep up with this, using a pee sized amount knowing the alternative is waking up to nothing, going to school without brushing your teeth is an automated decision, but eting an ice cream sandwich of tooth paste guarantees we have nothing in a day or two, it is the same for everything, when they do dishes every pot gets a quarter cup of dish soap, this is obvious, no one could keep up with this usage, when they use bleach they fill the bucket with pure bleach and come back to find the jeans have disolved, the bleach is gone, the jeans are gone, they wash their hair with copious amounts of shampoo, there is a pump that is perfect but they unscrew it, they are taking the salted chips out of the bag, putting them onto a plate so they can resalt them, gross, they take a big drive on the weekends, we can't afford an activity so it is a big drive, and now we don't have enough gas to do anything else and are walking to school, walking on the weekend would have been plesant 

We have a constant problem with rodent's and they blame the landlord's, but it is us, the food is out of the fridge with a wide open package, rodents hunt for food by smell, this should be obvious, why isn't this obvious? It is obvious to me but the other 4 have convinced me that I am ugly, that I am the stupid one that is always saying the socially awkward thing, they're not wrong about that, they have convinced me or it was always true but these thing's are still obvious, but I am one, they are saying this is normal and when I say anything, it is met with screaming "I will throw this fucking TV out the window" or "Stevie" eye roll, I am just the stupid, ugly one, always saying the wrong thing at the wrong time, everyone else is looking in a mirror, they're already famous, they're just waiting for the world to discover their fame. I live in constant fear the government will become aware of this, no human should live in these circumstances, there is green and black mold everywhere, there is constant animal shit, I walk in and see them just sitting next to a shit, 30 years later I am coming to visit still, it is not social, I do not want to be here, it is a child welfare check, and I have a PTSD like response, I know what I am going to find when I open this door, there is a child locked in a room, there is an animal with a festering wound oosing onto the floor, there is urine in a bottle somewhere, the toilets are black, the bathroom sinks are just covered in toothpaste, makeup, human excrement of every kind, they "clean" their bodies in a shower that is caked in something out of a horror film, but to them this looks like pristine ceramic and if you say what is this? Are you bathing children in this filth? It is the same, screaming words that have no context, they don't make sentences, they mean 

"I need you to stop paying attention to this, I need on a genetic level to finish something that is more important than mine or these children's lives, STOP inspecting this!" 

but what comes out is usually words that don't make any sense together, just screaming nonsense, but with all the intensity of a high end horror film, I mean the police are likely on the way.

It is not just the smell or the black mold or a thousand jerk off sessions as no one in this house is attracting any human sex in this filth, there is mechanical failure, tile grout is no match for urine and a thousand spooges, the line between tub and grout is black but it has holes now, there are tiles missing, but the people using this can't see, they are showering onto the drywall ceiling of the next floor below, the next floor has a brown stain, the thousand spooge stain, male and female, all of the sex in this house is coming together to make this disgusting brown spooge stain on this ceiling but no-one inside this house can see, the mom and dad and kids spooge stain building there, growing, they see pristine ceiling and they are occupied looking in a mirror anyhow, they are sitting on a floor, putting on make-up, they're famous, just waiting for the world to realize it, outside this mirror their clothes are disguising, week old sweats, covered in spooge and ranch and mustard, but inside the mirror there is a princess dress.

There is just a shit, everyone is relaxed and there is a kitchen table covered in bags from the grocery with brand new but now rotting food, it has been there for days and under the table is a shit, they have either found children who someone else had conditioned to live with the smell of unchanged litter box, urine, shit and old the lady perfume smell they use in cat litter, or they have done this, they have subjected a child's mind to this inhumane condition over and over until this has become life, just sitting in this rank un-breathable air with a shit and rotting food in plain sight.

I am timid, constantly frustrated but not vocal, not assertive, they're constantly reminding me I am an idiot, if I say something they would agree among-st themselves, they will take this opportunity to say "Stevie" eye roll, so stupid "as if" but later make sure to repeat this idea in front of me. To let me know if anyone else in the house shared the same idea it would have been met with approval.

They say an elephant never forgets, we think of that as something cute, he remembers friend, owners, locations and foods fondly but this isn't cute, this is a reassurance sellers are offering buyers and buyers are selling themselves, you see what they are convincing themselves of, is that this massive animal that could kill them with a small movement any time is scared of chains, if you chained up an adult elephant he would go full ham, He would free himself easily and likely harm the ones who did this, but if you chain them up when they are small, if you beat them, when they are large they still see the captor as having the ability to hurt them, that is what an elephant never forgets.

I am not just surpassing everyone in height, something else is happening, I am being told I am a joke, I am a looser, by my own family and by everyone else, my social stature and my clothes would agree, but I am doing hours of cardio every morning, if it rain's I am there, if I am sick I am still there, it is not a chore, this is somehow core to my existence as this person who wants so badly to help everyone but is just seen as a looser. 

This 4 hours passes like one minute, all of the others would like this discipline, but something alive inside of them will not let them, it is telling them they are already so beautiful and don't need to run and if they try, it actively stops them, this scares them, but if they can't change they must increase their efforts to convince me everything I do is pointless, I don't disagree, but what is happening to them and what is happening to me is not will, it is not personality, I am becoming what I am becoming in response to what they are becoming, and they are becoming what they are becoming in response to what I am becoming, nothing can stop any of this, something inside of us that is stronger than any of us is making these changes. We are in the Christian cult, I at this time have read the bible several times and can quote relevant scripture to most common situations, and so we are attributing all of this to a God, out of our control. I do not accept this. 

My neighbor is 11 now in 2025, he is 4 feet tall, he is a child, he plays with dolls and makes guns out of sticks, mentally and physically He is a child still, the need for an adult in this family has created an 11 year old that is 6-3 185 pounds and mentally some version of an adult, I have evolved in response to the energies in my habitation, this will be the basis for our experimentation. I am able to exercise past my physical abilities so that  tomorrow I am capable of more, I am desperately telling employers I have experience in jobs I have no ideas what I am doing but when put in the situation it seems I have information coming from knowledge outside my life experiences, like a hunting dog or a sheep dog, I am able to make appointments and arrive early, everyone else in this house is late to everything, there is some catastrophe every single time they give someone a time, often times there was no need to specify a time, they have given a time when it could have been an open invitation so that they could express, I will let you down, socially I want you to know this is what I can be relied on for, if you need something I can't be relied apon, we have two cars, one is a gold fire-bird, if we drove this car my ratty retro clothes would be my style, but we don't drive up in that car, that is my step fathers show car, no we have a Chevy citation, it is the quintessential 80's tiny hatchback shitbox, this vehicle seem's to sense urgency, if you are not in a hurry, it will start right up, but if you are late, if your energy is "I will get fired if this car doesn't start" nothing, and it just looses power on the highway, the battery just becomes disconnected and we roll to a stop over and over, but I have a bicycle, I do not rely on these people for anything, my family considers me an insomniac, but my grandfather has taught me sleep is not defined by anything but need, if you need food more than you need sleep it becomes negotiable, to me everyone elses sleep patterns look like obvious manic depression, sleeping 10 hours then going to sit at church for 3 hours then back home, exhausted to sleep another 4 hours, but exhausted from what? You were sitting down, this is your day off, the house is filthy

If any of my family cook in a clean kitchen, by the time they are done it looks like 5 meals were cooked, I feel like the voice inside their head is telling them they are taking everything out, all of the food all of the dishes, things that are in the way of things they need, the colander is in the back and so you take out everything to get to it, but the idea is that they are going to finish this meal and after have energy from the food to go put everything away but after they just sleep, and now these dried dirty dishes would take an entire weekend to clean, you must begin by making a system of soaking the dishes in this family, so every counter space is full of filthy dishes that have rotting water in them because someone has begun this process and forgotten, but if I cook, the kitchen is clean by the time I am done cooking, I didn't notice cleaning, but you don't cook so much as you wait for the gas to cook, and while I am standing there my hands just move, everything has a place, this doesn't register as effort, I am just waiting to stir, it feel's like we are two different species, they seem offended by the clean kitchen, like cleanliness is an attack, "I will throw the fucking TV out the window" but in response to a clean kitchen, it is the wrong genetic response, but they have panic in their eye's, something is telling me this is important, both their mothers homes were clean easily, but they seem to anticipate a constant struggle against basic maintenance and chores, and then you loose the house, over and over you just loose the house., they have created me, their willingness to loose the house has squeezed something in my mind over and over until something else evolved. If you say loose the house I will panic, I am in an almost constant panic about loosing a house, they seem to love this idea.

I have become little more than not loosing the house. 

My entire life people would tell me you have made it, you can relax now, you have 9 homes but to this present day if my family comes near one of my homes they will attach themselves and begin using things in an unusual way until the city is threatening to take the house as a public nuisance (as I write this, this is happening to my $700,000 home in Denver Co. in 2025) and when I say OK the city has said this, they scream "you are attacking us!" I say nicely "hey guy's this is a note from the city, it isn't a note from me" but I know, they are drawn like a magnet to loosing everything they touch, it is as though the story of the loss is more valuable than the survival that item represent's.

They go to the store and fill up shopping carts overflowing when they have no money, then abandon the shopping cart in the corner of the store, no one says anything, there are 50 other women in the store doing the same thing, it is genetic, they cannot stop this, when they do shop they buy garbage, zero quality, just quantity, and when they get home they want to have a pageant, to show everyone what they have brought home, to be famous for a moment "look, these were 50% off" "that's nice, who are they for?" "I would have paid twice as much but I only paid half!" "Ok, great job, but who did you buy them for? It isn't a woman's shoe, who did you buy them for?" IT WAS HALF Off!" This has been the same for 54 years. 

They don't follow through on anything. 

They're eating things that will make them fat and cause health problems, they know both of these thing's. 

Science is not a thing we train for in school for necessarily. 

Every animal on earth is a scientist, we automatically record new information and decide how we will change to adapt tomorrow. I bought a tool when I was 17, it was the first Makita cordless drill, I had that tool for a decade, every personal car I have for a decade or two, perfectly maintained, Appalachians buy a part for everything they own every month so that every month everything builds equity, my grandfather was wealthy, He had Apple stock and Mcdonalds before anyone knew what those things were, but his vehicle was a 10 year old, low mileage perfectly maintained car that reportedly hold's it's value. my parent's and sibling's get new car's and wreck them or don't do a single oil change and they just stop, they claim to be the victim of the dealership, there is a constant feeling of victimization, they are in the middle of several victimization's at all times, but they feel robbed, people aren't giving them proper attention for what they are going through, my siblings drive pressing on both the gas and the brake at the same time, keeping exactly 18 inches from the person in front of them no matter the speed, the person being followed of coarse thinks that they're being chased by a serial killer, they are confused as to why they have wrecked brand new vehicles's several times a year, they have wrecked 27. None of them can afford this lifestyle, most of the time there is only one person working, leaving 3 filling up shopping cart's. (I left very early)

Every animal on earth is born a scientist.

These people and I are two different species. 

I hypothesize this is not psychological because we have been produced by the same environment and same gene's

And this is not God, it is not ordained as the other's experience it, I can change it, I can put the cheese away, I can change the shape of my body with work.

No one before us had any of these life threatening traits. Nothing even similar. life was always simple, thrive and reproduce.

.We are of Scandinavian decent, we can't eat carbs without health problems. The genetic differences are very interesting to me very early, the Irish had a lot of potatoes and now could eat unlimited potatoes and not gain weight, but Scandinavian genes have not prepared for this, one year of emotional eating carbs can do a lifetime of damage, I like the discipline of knowing what we need to eat and how much exercise is required to burn it, it feel's simple and meaningful, but my family is eating pure carbohydrate with a goal of loosing weight?? disgusting rice cakes, that not only taste like Styrofoam but also are pure carbohydrate?? The "weight watcher" foods are all pure carbohydrate, labeled as diet food's, but we just know what carbohydrates are don't we? But when I explain this common fact they laugh out loud, over and over for 40 years, but like too loud, like they want very badly for me to feel like an idiot at this moment but there is a panic in their eye's, this is very important to them. 

I bought a duplex a few years later and someone had ruined the dirt out front making a gravel parking area in their own front yard, after year's they probably put more and more as the dirt rose and it became muddy again, I would do my hours of running, then work 10 or more hours, then I would rototill these rocks up in the evening, I had a wheel barrow and chicken wire on a square frame to sift out the dirt, for years, and the neighbors would sit and sit and sit and one day they just couldn't sit anymore, my work demanded genetic response, I wasn't trying to do this, a neighbor relaxing isn't offensive, but God was showing me how thing's would go my entire life, they would ask me to help them make a plan, it is a sly way to get me to stop, making a plan feel's like you're building equity when your not, so I said I would help if I could keep working while we talked, the people that sit are something else, my parents sat, they made plan after plan after plan so I am wary of these other people. Most would go on to start a business and a garden, one of my favorite businesses was a very humble small business, the next door neighbors began a business selling peep holes in door's, door to door, He had a job, he didn't like the job, He wanted very badly to quit, it was corporate, many people in a building with no plant's, it felt creepy, He couldn't put his finger on it, lot's of money but creepy, they sold safety with no environmental impact, they would sell a whole door occasionally, or refinish the door, fresh coat of paint and a hole to see who was there before you opened it, very humble, very beautiful. They would all come for inspiration and advice, a business license is $20, magnetic sign's for your car $20, a web sight $20 professional custom invoices $20, embroidered tags with the company logo $20. The difference in professionalism is small and yet massive, my family would try business again and again but they would show up late with a car that didn't run and an excuse, then they would skip the prep work spill the paint, then disappear on some made up emergency that seemed very, very real to them, no one want's to pay for this train wreck, you are destroying their live's, but when I do work I bring order, the car isn't new or expensive, but it is perfectly maintained, it is clean inside and out, my wardrobe is a little punk rock but meticulously organised, clean shaven, detailed teeth, spotless shoes. company logo on the vehicle, company logo sewed onto the shirt, company logo on the invoice, and the second I step into the home I know exactly what I need to complete this task.

Paperwork isn't easy, and yet if you just persist it is over within a day or a week, and now we are licensed and bonded and insured and have a perfect better business bureau rating or whatever your industry metric is, but there are people that can receive this information and people that cannot I realize, the difference comes down to minutes per day, it takes the same time to shower to poop, to shave, to commute, then one group spends 30 minutes a day on some very boring paperwork, so boring it is hard to make your own brain concentrate on it, but we persist, the other group spends that same 30 minutes finding their keys they lost at 3 different locations and say's they will get to the paperwork tomorrow, but tomorrow the keys are missing again, if you show up to pretty much any homeowners house with this impeccable presentation you can charge them a thousand dollars for just about anything, but the lost key people are going to get gas money out of charity, just to get them away from your property.

I come to realize this is natural selection. If the body chooses death, the person cannot see they're loosing the keys, they cannot see they're eating themselves into an early death. 

I had some Appalachian neighbors, 2 brother's as big as trees, in the winter we would go up to a cabin and race snowmobiles in a big circle, crashing into each other, or joining in the annual ice fishing contest for a dodge truck, drinking moonshine to stay warm. 

And then one day the daughter of a very powerful family told me her brother's sex would not work unless there were people burning in a building He had set on fire. 

It was very upsetting, but I worked with very traumatized people, I reported it, I have had to report dangerous clients before, it is routine. 

And then I was in prison. 

First the police come to my home, bring me in for questioning, but it isn't for the fire starter, what am I talking about? But isn't that why they have come? No, I am asked about a federal employee I have assaulted, and federal trespassing, and guns, and drugs They suddenly they let me out of the county jail, I haven't slept, they have been keeping me up, screaming interrogation at me, I just keep saying "I have never been accused of any of these thing's, you have me mistaken with someone else, I am on the board of of my church, I work at the mission" I am confused but the nightmare is over. I will get a lawyer and hold these people responsible for this torture tomorrow, for now I must sleep.

I wake to loud banging on my door, but now I can hear there are very many people outside and now I see lights flashing from every different direction.

I had escaped they say, they beat me and returned me to jail. Days more of screaming, spit landing on my face, they're questioning me about how I escaped but of course everyone present is aware I was just let go through the normal process, they are screaming words but the meaning is becoming more obvious, THIS IS HAPPENING- GET USED TO IT- THIS IS HAPPENING.

Soon I am in prison, not the county jail, but state prison, for serious criminals. Not in one place, I would get a job, run for 4 hours every day, then men would come and ask me to help them make a plan for a new life and then without incident or warning I would be put into solitary confinement, 24 hour lock-down meant only for the most violent crimes, no sunlight, no communication, no yard, for a week, and then 10 men would enter the cell violently, extracting Me, then a new facility, a new prison with a higher security level, then I would get served with papers that said I had been convicted of inter-facility crimes, that extended my sentence and increased my security level, and I was confused but I would run for 4 hours and get a job and soon men would come and ask me to share motivation and help them make a plan, black men that were nerd's or loved church but every white person that came to the neighborhood only saw a drug salesman, and he said "I don't know where to buy drugs" annoyed, a thousand times, but one more time and he was convinced, one day he needed money, and he had always known where to get drugs, and it was only one time, and soon society and the courts and the disgusting police had made him into something he was not, something they needed him to be, and He and I would discuss what He had meant to be before this was done to him, and we would make a plan, getting an LLC costs $20, getting a website costs $20, getting some magnetic stickers for the side of your vehicle with a beautiful logo $20, logo for the shirt $20 and then you just keep reinvesting in you, forget partying, just focus on money, and a beautiful garden with plant's full of human food, and now in prison you can design your companies logo for free. You can design your garden.

And you can write a mission statement, what is the impact you want to have on your community? On the other black kids who are only being seen as drug dealers? What will your business express to them? How will your business both give you a new hope and give them a new choice? And then in the middle of the night 10 men would come in my cell, violently, they crave violence, they need me to be a bad person, there are extra twists, body movements that are 10 men in a small space but also very intentional, twisting the hips violently where there is no need so the elbow covered in hard plastic jabs under the ribs harder than a mans hand could, taking my breath away, this has been practiced, they are not working, they enjoy this, they are telling themselves they are changing the world for the better, but they could easily be on the other side, if they had been told the secret about the fire starter whos last name was Chafee in Chaffee county.

And then the hole for a week, two weeks, a month, there is no way to know, there is no light, no dark, no breakfast, occasional brown paper bags are shoved through a hole in the door, sandwiches with bread and ketchup I am allergic to, then random beatings, and now I am emaciated again, i am white as paper, and then 13 men come into my tiny cell again, they have on riot gear this time, with silly shields and clubs this time, probably training some newbies, it works better if this inspires a fight, they would prefer it, jabbing with sticks, grabbing unnecessarily, they want you to resist, something interesting is happening, a dead person would become jaded, he would start planning revenge, a way to hurt someone during one of these encounters, a plan to get out and kill their families, but I am alive, and so my body is growing new necessary parts to better thrive in my new environment, I am evolving in this cell, I am growing tendons that connect my groin to my  sternum, these new tendons itch and they ache, the prison cells are always freezing cold and so you sleep for short bursts then wake up shivering, the bed is a concrete slab, it sucks the heat out of your body so you wake up and start running in place, jumping jacks for a half hour, half hour sets of push-ups, hand stand push-ups between the toilet and the bed so you can go lower than you could on the floor, hours and hours of crunches at one point both legs were broken and set in a cell with no medical treatment, they don't just want to break your bones but to also feel very justified. To tell their wife later that they had done something great, not broken a mans leg bones who wasn't resisting, but that they had protected her, saved her. Then I am transported to another facility, this time it is "closed" security, only thing left is maximum, and then I am served papers that inform me I was convicted of some more crimes that I was not aware I was accused of, and I exercise 4 hours a day, and I get a job and soon men come to ask for motivation and we get to talking about who society sees them as and who they saw themselves as before this idea was imposed onto them. 

They call me Hollywood now, whoever I speak to the police interview, with little notepads in their hands like paparazzi, I have left the notion that this is a mistake, that this will end many years ago, I am here, this is my life, the only power I have is that whomever thinks they are playing with my life hasn't the authority, only my Appalachian God, my ancestors and nature, who are all one to my people have the power to control my destiny, and so they are waiting for a violent reaction, or for me to break, but My God alone has brought me here, he needs me to help these men or He needs something else I cannot yet see, I only live to serve him and so this is uncomfortable but it is also an honor. And then it was maximum security, I did not feel the sun touch my body for many years, the other men were killers, leaders of gangs importing drugs and putting hits on men, they were here to keep them from communicating, keep them from "calling shots" but of coarse the guards were for sale and so this facility that is costing us billions is mute, zero value to the tax payer, the guards get to enjoy housing humans like tortured animals, past that any protection offered is imagined, 24 hour lock down, if you leave the cell you back up to a rectangle slot in the door, the opening goes from the middle to the end you put your arms out, they handcuff you and now lift your arms up until it is painful, this is not necessary to open the door, this is just each guards payment, 6 figures and you get to torture people but pretend you are serving mankind, then a loud buzzing like in the movies, then the door slides open to the left, then crashes to a stop, then a second guard puts ankle cuffs on, then they chain the ankle cuffs to the hand cuffs, they have a special set of cuffs for larger guys, they can fit the smaller ones on me and do often but it slows them down, they have to clean up the blood, the transmission of disease is a big concern among these guards, they are in constant contact with the inmates blood, it is a felony to spit on them, although the likelihood of transmitting disease through spit is nothing, it would take 5 gallons of spit to transfer a simple std, they're exaggerating this as a contributor, it of coarse is the beatings, the constant physical abuse, they are being told by a voice in their heads this is benefiting the world but it is just creating super villains, these men came here normal but many can now break the handcuffs, humans evolve to thrive in whatever environment you put them in.

They are legally required to re-integrate you into gen pop before releasing you into the world, instead they took me to another max facility, they told me I was getting out, then changed the day, then changed it again, then changed it again, they would bring food to the tray for your arms and then say oh you don't want it? and pretend I had refused to eat, they are taunting me, they want me to come out an animal,

I am finally freed. I have nothing. My captors are hoping I would prove them justified, hoping all the beatings would turn into an antisocial rage so they could feel justified retroactively, hoping I turn to drugs and alcohol, hurt people, hurt police, they stop me constantly, they make me back out of the truck with my hands behind my head now drop to my knees not using my hands, now drop to my face with my hands behind my head, now they make me walk a line, now blow into this pipe with crystals, they charge me with d.u.i. the crystals said there was no alcohol present, so I feel confident going to court but 7 officers show up to testify I was drunk and abusive, there were only two present at the traffic stop, they are just having fun now. 

They put a ticket on my record I don't know about that says I have destroyed a telephone pole, I get stopped, I have a license in my hand that I believe is valid but they inform me I have no licence, and that no licence triggers your insurance to stop so I have no insurance although I have paid for it and have the card, and now I go to pay for this mysterious telephone pole but each pole is marked, the pole I have damaged has no damage, so I cannot pay for the pole to re-instate my license because the pole is undamaged, I have to fight this for years. just more fun for them. 

3 month's out of prison I paid cash for a house.

Within a year I paid cash for a second house. 

The police are sitting outside of my new home, they're waving at me, smiling, they are in marked car's. You surveil people in unmarked car's unless you are trying to instigate them, the urban assault vehicles sitting in front of my home for my neighbors to see and infer I am a criminal. They say in bold yellow letter's "major crimes" "gang task force" "organised crimes division" 

I have moved to a neighborhood I know quite well, West-wood, cop's don't go into west-wood at nigh unless there's a body, unless they've been invited, cops die at night here, the kids street-race in the night, the hundreds of thousands of dollars of race equipment is paid for with money from selling drugs, in the morning's the curbs are damaged and there are rims and bumpers and bodies laying in the street, white people aren't very welcome but I have a secret weapon, I run 4 hour's at 4 in the morning, then I work 10 hours then I come home and work on my house in front of everyone, and the people sit, and they sit, one day my house has a bullet-hole in the morning, one morning a brick comes through the front window but this motivation is too great, it demands genetic response, people who were extinct begin to evolve, extinction needs a place to hide, everyone has to agree, one person says "I have a thing inside of me that is stronger than me that makes me eat things I don't want to eat" and the response has to be a unanimous, "Me too" it only takes one to say "What? That doesn't make any sense, it's your hand, it's your money, it's your mind, who is stopping you? Who is controlling you?" This is a light, this will become my life's work. This is God. 

Those men never had the power to imprison me. God needed something of me that I could only find in that dark place, to see that the world was being misled, that the churches common knowledge had superseded human knowledge, to go into isolation perceiving one species and come out seeing there are two distinct species, to not recognize what humanity had become the human body does not store much of anything when it is evolving, and the sexuality is only exaggerated by this storage, a woman stores fat as more lips, hips and tits, but once we become extinct we begin storing things in an off-putting way, and we stop expressing sexuality, and so a fat extinct male would be indistinguishable from a fat extinct female, our goal in extinct form is to cause death by the storage and restore the soil with our bodies, if the soil at your house needs glucose, your body has measured this and is doing a beautiful work, if your soil needs protein then your body has measured this and is doing a beautiful job, the fat person has more interest in storing sugar than producing more humans same as the the body builder but with protein both glucose and protein are vital in the restoration of damaged soil, every plants job is turning sunlight into glucose, but if we attempt to live away from this relationship the body must repair the soil with it's own sacrifice and so the storage of the soil repair becomes the priority and the body stops trying to attract a mate, this person is probably sexually frustrated but the body has changed the DNA to not attract the opposite sex and a voice inside this person is saying to eat more food to express this frustration, I am sad I am alone and that is why I am eating a gallon of Ben and Jerrys as though it is a single serving, my grandmother would say of Americans "Stevie that man has no features" And if I would have sat down and listened to my beautiful Appalachian grandmother then I wouldn't have had to go to maximum security prison for a decade, this was something I expressed genetically because it is what we needed as a species, to regain perspective, to be able to see the contrast, We look in the mirror every day, and so we cannot see the subtle changes taking place. Let me give you an example, I had a hunting dog named Blue just after I got out of max, this was very important to me, I was sort of feral, I had been kept as an animal and now wasn't that great with people, for years 10 men would come into my cell to transport me to another cell, 10 men  wasn't necessary, I was compliant all of the time, but that was my only interaction with humans for years, so this dog was my friend, and when people came by a dog is a social lubricant, human interaction had been redefined in my mind as conflict, so someone comes over for something benine, the neighbors report kids got into my BBQ while I was away and they ran them off for me, or an employee need's a tool or some advice, but my body is tense, it is waiting for this one interaction. This was a good dog, Blue couldn't care less if you paid attention or not, a great calm energy, in many way's this amazing animal saved me, a beautiful silver/blue weimereiner, and one day people began asking me if my dog was OK, and I would screw up my face and say yes, is your mother?  What kind of question is that? The dog is doing better than you! Americans are always trying to create insecurity inside of others, they cannot help themselves, it never stops, and so I thought this is what this was, but one day the dog became stuck in a dog door that had been twice her size, she had an automatic feeder and it seemed I was buying food often but I had 13 employees who would bring dogs by the house, so the dog doubled in size in front of my eye's without me noticing, your mirror and your children don't look like humans anymore, the actor's the supermodels have changed in front of your eye's. If GOD had not put me in a solitary prison cell for a generation I could not have seen. The dog had doubled in size as clear as day, seeing the dog every day had removed perspective, and so God needed to give me perspective back, my grandmother was trying to tell me, but I couldn't hear, we have bills and taxes and the parking ticket and the broken fridge and our wife is upset etc... one man had to go into the box to come out and say "what has happened" these humans are unrecognizable. The women had no female body part's, the men had no male body parts, the famous actor's were neither male or female, the sex symbols had no sexuality and the women who came into my life would change genetically in response seemingly to being in my home, and they would say "Steven look at this" girls that had a closed vagina like an infant would open with the clitoris exposed, girl's with a pink tiny unresponsive male nipple would turn black and grow huge like an index finger with duct's you could see from a distance, girl's would come to work for me with no butt and a few month's later they would be buying new jeans again and again, but they weren't gaining weight anywhere else, girls who had love handles all their lives suddenly we-wrote their DNA and the love handle was sucked in and what was left was a soft beautiful feminine curve, and would come to work and say "look" but if they left to work elsewhere these things would return, and they would come to me and say "look" but if I hadn't been in a cell, and if each one had not come to me and told me to look at their private part's and if they had forgotten to return and tell me to look at the private part's that had returned to it's original state, I would not be here telling you this, it would not have added up, every single piece had to be perfect for 40 years, I was making million's of dollars and trying to find the woman I would spend the rest of my life with and the 13 employees were nut's, 13 families problem's all looking to me for answers, the police are still sitting outside, accusing me of doing things I have licenses to do, I am  licensed physician growing marijuana for cancer patients with a license for 500 plants, the grow is permitted with the city, we work with the city weekly, pulling permits, designing and consulting for other doctor's doing the same thing, but 13 men break down my door and scream interrogation after I have invoked my right to remain silent, spit landing on my face in handcuffs in my own home, taking me to jail, then charging me with a felony for having half of the number of plants I am licensed to have, then telling me to leave the country. You can imagine there is so much more to tell, but I must stop there, you see how easy it would be to loose sight? and in prison I had a job and a position in the church and I worked out for 4 hours a day, and when I was wealthy (again) I worked out for 4 hours a day, an after I left the country I worked out for 4 hours a day. I have been upset with God, this took 40 years, and every moment had to be perfect, I had to be made to remember, there had to be something that made each one of these moments stand out, and so you're thinking God if you have this much control over things, couldn't you have just written this down? Couldn't you have just told the people? Did I really have to go to a maximum security prison? But my life is not my own. People need this, people are dying, there is no time to consider this. 

These peoples bodies have changed when they were in my presence but I am nothing special, why are these people changing on a genetic level in front of me? The only thing remarkable I am doing is growing food, doing cardio and not eating sugar, and the people around me are offended by all 3 things, they keep telling me each of these things is difficult. Look you are tired, look you are tired, STOP! I pass an old man to this day that just says cansada, as though it is my name, I have been riding for two and a half hours by this time, but I will pass him again in another three hours, He knows I am not tired, but this bothers him. 

The people tell me you have fruit, give it away, give it to me, this offends them, a tree full of fruit, if I tell them to help themselves they will strip the tree bare as if they were mad at it, so I must take one or two and say here, and then tell them why doesn't your house have trees full of fruit? trees are free, there is dirt at your house but you are here looking at my trees, why doesn't your house have too much food as mine does? Let's cut a piece off of my tree and grow a tree at your house, we cannot all eat from this one house, we need as many trees as we have people. 

My house has a tank full of edible fish, 500 gallons of tilapia, I'd say about 150 fish come out of this tank every two months, and each time they are a little bigger and the people pass and tell me to give them fish, and I have the opportunity to witness Gods amazing truth, I can give you two fish and you can be full for an hour or I can give you two live fish a male and a female and you can be full the rest of your life, I can give you all my mangoes and we can both be hungry tomorrow or I can teach you how to grow mangoes. we can share a mango and plant the seeds together at your house, a papaya tree gives fruit the same year you plant it, but it is a little confusing, I am new here, these people know all of this.

In America I remember going to the country to pick berry's, it was an amazing feeling, fresh berries were expensive, free all you can eat berries? But it is winter half the year so the plant is constantly doing things aside from giving fruit it seems, here in the Caribbean the fruit bush becomes a fruit tree, and it has fruit every moment, the neighbor kids come and take fruit constantly but they are short, and the tree is two stories tall and so it is constantly full of fruit, huge black berries as big as thumbs falling onto the soil. We stopped using the gate near this tree many years ago, we walk through the downstairs patio because this bush turned tree has taken over, I take cuttings regularly as it grows over the sidewalks to make clones, other trees with identical genes, if I planted the seeds I would see evolution, the trees genes would try some adaptation, a tree that is constantly full of food is great for me but it attracts a lot of predators, it might try something a little more conservative but I would prefer the same, so I clone it, I have 3 more that are about 3 foot tall growing in the back now, we use the water from the fish pond for those plants so they grow at a rate that is hard to believe. It will be so beautiful to see my own children grow up with all this excess energy. To teach them how to care for these plants I will leave them one day, to watch them play in this forest of food.

When I purchased my home there were no plants, the termites had eaten everything, there was a sick avocado tree that had not produced an avocado in a decade and two sick palm trees, we brought in a backhoe and were able to break up just enough rock to make a 10,000 gallon pool,  the backhoe was picking up a rock the size of a dumpster and dropping it into the hole breaking what they could, but after half a day they said "ya" which means that is it, that is the shape of your pool. In Gods beautiful plan it is almost the exact shape we have asked for but 3 feet further into the center of the property, we would find out later why this was necessary for Gods plan.

At this time this is just broken rock dust, laying on top of a solid sheet of rock, this isn't soil. This is not going to be easy. 

At that time this property has no human energies and it has no chicken energies and so the animals and us are perceiving struggle on a genetic level, all life on earth has a system that is measuring for it's species energy where it is at currently and making decisions, weather the current number of the species can live without killing the soil, weather there is enough energy to make more of the species, we have opened a restaurant and are throwing food scraps out of the kitchen directly onto the rock dust, amazon boxes, pizza boxes, the egg cartons are flats of 36 and the cartons are flat and perfect for new substrate, coffee grounds, egg shells, unfinished hamburgers and fries, milkshakes that have sat in the sun for hours, fajitas, bones from garlic butter hot wings etc... 

Chickens show up, they start reproducing immediately and we build a chicken house with a roof made of a huge satellite that the building came with. But these chickens are feral, I don't mean "not tame" as the American cult would have you believe, I mean there is no energy here for either humans or chickens in the plants. Yet.

And so the chickens bodies are measuring these energies and their gene's are deciding there is no right to procreate here and so the chickens are not willingly having sex, all chicken sex at this point is rape, violent loud rape, we have lights for security at night, the building is huge, it is 6 levels, there are more than 10 exterior lights at night, the chickens are not used to this, their bodies are saying it is day still, so the males are making their wake up call all night. ya ya ya ya ya, the males at this point are at least double the size of the local males, so the females are screaming bloody murder. We are barely sleeping, the females don't just not want sex, no right to procreate is finite, if you make a child without the right, this child will be deformed, unable to pay attention, prone to illness, a bad life and quick death, we are seeing huge groups being born but everything is just dying, it is almost too much to bare, every day you wake to another nightmare, violence then death, sickness then death, birth sort of begins to be synonymous with death for a while, it is still beautiful to see the baby chicks as tiny as bottle caps waddling along single file but there is another looming feeling, 4 puppies are born under the restaurant stairs, we don't have a dog, or a single chicken for that matter, everyone has just showed up, now less sleep than before, the mother wants to kill these puppies, I hate to say this but it probably would have been better for them and for us, we grow to love them and then watch each one die. But I am Appalachian, and I am a servant of God, as much as you hate to see each one go, horrifically, sitting there nursing them till the end, each body is going into the soil, not in a bag or a box, direct contact, each has a job, a beautiful purpose while they are alive, eat the food then add nitrogen calcium magnesium and phosphorus to it and put this perfect fertilizer onto the soil and then when the life is over the body returns to the soil as well, we came from it and we return to it, this is the beautiful life cycle. 

We put the amazon boxes, we put the egg shells and the coffee grounds, the leftover's from a thousand hamburgers and fries from our burger joint, when the dirt begins to change color from almost white to a tan we bought a few trees about 3 feet tall but they stunted, there is little energy in this new substrate still. But now we are growing fish in a 500 gallon tank, a few die a week, we are generous but basically making every mistake possible, they started out 2 inches long, it seemed at first they may never grow, maybe we have purchased goldfish, 6 months later they are half a pound, everything that dies we put at the base of a different plant or tree. When the fish are healthy they eat like piranhas, violent, kids are afraid to put their hands in the tank, when their apatite slows it is time to change the water, but this water is now gold, 500 gallons of magic water, whatever you put this on is about to change overnight, we forget the drain is on and 100 fish die, we honestly didn't know how to harvest, you cant catch a fish, not the one you want. Now there are 100 fish in the freezer and now the fish start growing faster and faster, they love the leftovers from the restaurant.

5 years later our contribution has been minimal, each thing was seconds, but now there is a forest of food, you cannot see the sky, you cannot see the neighbors, there are 3 okra trees, around 8 lechosa trees (papaya) 2 guanavana, 3 azukita (mulberry) 2 coconut trees, many huge aloe plants, lots of lemonsilla, there is a Dominican oregano plant that has taken over an area 8 by 8 and is constantly taking over the sidewalks, none of the neighbors houses have plants like this. At their homes everything just dies, but they're putting everything into the landfill, plants are not magic, soil is not magic, we have been living this simple life for millions of years and suddenly the American cult is telling us to put everything into some landfill or a water treatment plant, then go buy chemicals for the plants. Then deciding who does and does not have a green thumb. There aren't Bad individuals in America, each person goes to university to do a small part, your job is to sell stuff, and that awesome person uses focus groups to find out how a certain group will be convinced to buy a certain product, and then this is applied to billions of people. This person is not aware of the fact that these fake flavors and fake smells and preservatives represent human death, they're just trying to feed children, make their wife proud. But the result is still death. I have not met a living American, the wife has no lips, no butt, male eyes, male hands male shoulder's, a male personality, this female could have easily prepared for this job of motherhood, if someone put her in abundance her body would have changed to express femininity, and if we waited till then, the children would have come out with the ability to pay attention, with a clear sex. Not just a flawless human child but one thing extra, if these children were evolving we would be looking for the next step, growing up my neighbor could grab the top of the glass backboard at the gym, another can hold his breath the length of an Olympic pool, another can jump a trashcan on his bmx from a standstill, I try to mimic these abilities, I don't understand how the kid is lifting the bike, there is nothing connecting the pedals to his shoes, I am doing 4 hours of cardio every day, if we are X-Men I am the guy that grows fingernails, not wolverine, exploding out as weapons, nope, just regular fingernails meandering out, yawn, the guys with the fun tricks get all the girls attention. But it is still a step.

A dog is trying to express something that was taught to him over a thousand generations, he is digging holes, he is chewing up packages, he is turning bones into perfect fertilizer and turning amazon garbage into perfect new substrate, he knows where we need to disturb the soil, before he poops he smells each area carefully to see where we have too much nitrogen and where we still need more. He doesn't want you to throw a stupid ball, for millions of years he has aided in gathering food, it is his beautiful job to increase the energy in the home for our offspring and for his children, this American cult telling us to waste our lives throwing some ball over and over, this is normal, this is normal, this is normal, just keep being normal, your wife is hearing words you haven't said, words of attack when you said something nurturing but just keep being "normal" your child can't pay attention but just keep quiet, "be normal" your child is turning half boy and half girl now, born one and now switching, this has happened against their will, they have not given consent to have this happen to them, this is a rape of sorts, it is not consensual and it is removing their right to express their sex but just stay quiet, just "be normal" 

Your perfect family is in front of your eye's. the "right to life" the "right to procreate" is in your landfill, you are throwing them into the garbage day after day. All we have to do is to stop eating preservatives and put these energies into the soil where we live. If it is illegal to have human food plants where you live then you will have to move but moving 2 minutes outside of your city is probably going to be much cheaper than living in the middle of it. This doesn't have to be that big of a change. Remember we need to teach the others, we are all one, if we all move to the Dominican republic there will be no one to spread the message where you live. America is in dire straights, it isn't just the replacement rate, a normal replacement rate is sort of anything over 2.5 children per female, on average of course. America is at 1.6 the real problem is when you observe the populace that now requires pizza boxes to say "open before eating pizza" and requires the batteries to say "do not drink acid" we are now seeing generations that just sit down as a group. This is not going forward anymore. There are only 2 directions, evolution or extinction, the American normal since I was a child has been to make a plan every new years eve to get into shape and then to not do that, it is in every area of the pop culture, but we are ignoring the fact that, to have something inside of you that is fighting against you being healthy is extinction.

My entire life my body has said "man I can't wait for cardio!" I wake up seeing pictures of cows and chickens and cute girls and friends, I am pumped full of dopamine and serotonin, but when we first bought this building I began to struggle. My mind was telling me suddenly this was difficult, my legs had been broken 30 years ago, and this has finally caught up to me, I have a hernia and a 3rd degree ac separation from being hit on my road-bike and now these things seem very present in my mind, my mind was telling me to do cardio, I can't wait, and now we are living here with many animals but no food in the trees, in the plants, the fridges are full of food, this is a restaurant, but a fridge is a very new thing, your body has not been measuring food that has already been picked or slaughtered as future abundance, that food would be spoiled in a day for millions of years. My body was measuring this lack of species specific energy and telling me maintaining the health equity of my body was becoming too difficult, and now my beautiful wife is putting expensive sheets in the dirt outside, then telling me "look at this beautiful day Esteban!" and it is beautiful, but babe it looks like the sheets are in the dirt again, so it kind of seems like you are bringing me over here to start a fight about sheets, babe can you remember putting the sheets in the dirt again? Somehow she has found places to put things, old food and wet rags and those places are quickly turning black and starting to smell and immediately there are roaches and rodents at our budding little business. This business isn't my dream, she has been in university for 5 years for business and asked if I would do her this favor, to do this with her is my pleasure but now the plumbing is clogged and there appears to be an entire pork chop in this drain, I don't even know how a person could mechanically do this, it would be kind of impressive if we weren't already under water here, the bar is a hit, everybody loves us but there is black stuff appearing again and again, it seems like an outside force is causing us to have a reason to not agree, but there are only two people here and now doing cardio seems overwhelming. 

Let me stop there, I wanted to paint a picture but that got a little dark right? As we grew the plants everything became normal again, the chickens hang out peacefully all day now, the mother chickens that had been ready to fight when you passed still don't want you too close to the babies but they just cluck come here, I wake up hours early for cardio with dopamine packed veins, there are no black spots, no hidden messes, no mysterious break downs, stuff breaks but it doesn't feel like there is an outside force stacking things too high, it is just regular maintenance. Everything is so beautiful now.

What I want you to connect is everything was relevant to the amount of human energies, to the chicken energies, America would say the chickens were just not used to us, and given time they would just calm down, just keep buying their processed, preserved chicken food and give it time, but the neighbors chickens are still nuts! Americans have big companies that are great at changing perceptions, Appalachians have not been exposed to that, we are living a complex balance that we have had for millions of years, it isn't hard, but it is balance, you have to be able to diagnose.

If you just accept that your wife is crazy and you just accept that your child can't pay attention and is genetically expressing two sexes or the lack of any distinguishable sex then you have sort of given up hope, your religions are saying to leave these things alone, to have more faith and give them a little more money, but this is a lie, neither ignoring this nor applying more faith will result in restoring the health of your beautiful wife or beautiful children, we have the science to heal everyone now!

This is a solution to every problem the world is facing, but it starts at home, your body is measuring how much human energy is there and how much stuff that kills humans and deciding weather your family can live or not, every decision you think you are making is a voice that is carrying out that one decision. You don't love IPA's and smothered burritos with fries, your body has measured the energy in the soil where you live and decided there is not enough, it has deemed you a threat to humanity and so it is telling you you love carbohydrates to kill you, to put you inside the soil as a perfect remedy, normally the plant partners turn sunlight into sugar, and so this soil is packed full of glucose, but if the plants die we have an emergency system, a back up plan, the entire family will suddenly hear voices that tell them to eat sugar that will cause their death and then deliver that sugar into the soil, your families dead bodies are the cure, this is the reality you are living, everyone you know is dead, they are all telling each-other "this is normal" "this is normal" "this is normal" you say "I tried to stop eating sugar but something inside me made me eat the sugar anyways, I can't even remember buying it, I hid it from myself, I told other people to keep it away from me but in the end I ate it anyways and there is a resounding "us too" you have no personality, everyone just considers their brand of glucose to be their identity, "I don't even like sweets, give me a super hoppy IPA beer and some healthy pasta with a flour sauce with lots of garlic, like almost too much garlic" but a live person would hear you saying you don't like sugar then naming 4 sugars you can't seem to stop eating. 

For this to work everyone must be extinct, it only takes one family to start putting human energies into the soil until they begin to evolve again. Then the interaction becomes trans-formative. You don't have to say anything, your lives will be remarkable, dead people will try, "I have something inside of me that tells me I will get in shape at the end of the year but then I just keep eating instead!" big anticipatory smile, waiting for you to say "Me too!" but no, "Huh, that's weird, I just get a couple hours of cardio in a day and don't eat sugar so I never really have an excess of sugar stored" these people will either stop paying attention or they will be changed on a genetic level by your inspiration. It is not complicated, avoid antibiotic food and put the eggshells and leftovers etc... right onto the soil, it seems counter-intuitive, it has been brainwashed into us we must compost for years, but that has not been our existence for millions of years. Having a relationship to the soil and your food source has been, normally we would see abnormality and realize that we have something missing, Appalachians have lived isolated from mainstream culture and to us if a child can't pay attention or is genetically expressing a mixed sex we know to reduce the species or to increase the energy for that species, we now know scientifically why this was correct, we have microorganisms we now refer to as our microbiome, one thousand species of small animals that each have a specific job in our bodies, one eats protein and secretes dopamine (human motivation) into a storage area for later use, one eats a different protein and makes serotonin (human happiness) one eats another protein and makes glp-1 (human ozempic) one eats another protein and secretes the fluid for your cranium which must be replaced 100% every day, your brains huge computing power is creating waste and so the fluid it sits in is meant to be constantly flowing but we have two enemies in the new developed lifestyle, one is preservative, well, all antibiotics but preservatives are the one you are likely ingesting the most of, your food has preservatives in it, restaurant food, fast food, packaged food, it is added for "freshness" but it keeps things fresh by killing microorganisms that would potentially eat it, but it doesn't stop doing this job when you eat it, it kills the microorganisms doing these amazing jobs in your body, the second system is simply the bathroom, every time you poop you loose 10 billion of these cool animals, they're simply still doing their jobs, converting your food into these beautiful chemicals, joint fluid natural Viagra (nitric oxide) t3 and t4 for your thyroid, normally some of this would go somewhere you were walking to and some of this would go into the soil where you lived, it would go into the soil, the plants you have been evolving with have your food in them and use the same microorganisms as you do, the plants job is photosynthesis, turning sunlight into sugar, which is unbelievable, and the purpose of this sugar put directly into the soil is a genesis, a warm dark place plus your cool animals plus your partners sugars equals a genesis, 10 billion become 10 trillion and now we see an explosion of life in the plants and the soil and then in the human, normally we would never leave this abundance, but your poops are going into a water treatment facility to have antibiotics applied to them, 100% are killed, and the person becomes unmotivated, unhappy, overweight, confused, unable to have sex without pills, normally the vegetables are full of these but the vegetables you are eating have not been grown with human partners, they have been grown with chemicals, with pesticides which are antibiotic as well, and so it looks like food, it will keep you from dying, but it is not food, it does not have a microbiome of it's own, you and the plant are only being kept alive with chemicals, but kept from death and alive are two very different things. "We are a sad generation taking happy pictures" a perfect American quote, 4 generations ago. It was the existence before that generation and has only declined since. The American existence is living without feeling's, without nutrition and just addressing the loudest symptom of that loss today, if in suffering 1000 chemical deficiencies the one most pronounced is confusion or depression or joint pain or lack of metabolic rate you will respond to that one screaming symptom, you will take a pill that poorly synthesizes the natural version of that chemical but it has 10 side effects and you will be addicted to that pill the rest of your life and it's side effects will now be what you are going to go to the hospital for next and likely die of, we are no longer writing natural causes on your death certificates, we are writing preventable, which is a way of normalizing this death by medicine, if we called it suicide it would have a very different reaction, but the pharmaceutical companies are our Gods now, they own your sex and happiness and motivation, your attraction, take this and be skinny again, as long as you have a spare $5000 and don't mind admitting you will be dependent on this the rest of your life. The natural version of each of these is in the energy you are throwing out every day. Plastics are new, our DNA doesn't have anything stored for this. It isn't safe in your soil and burning it is cancer causing, I don't have opinion, abstain where you can, everything else is written in your DNA, every human has shared the same information stored in their DNA for 300,000 years so this will just come automatically, it sounds like you will just be living with a trash pile but the animals have been doing this job for million of years, the dog is going to macerate the pizza boxes and they are almost immediate substrate, you could rip up an amazon box and plant something in it the same day, a pulp style egg carton doesn't even need to be ripped up, dogs lick egg shells, chickens and fish eat almost all food waste and turn it into instant fertilizer, this is not what the internet will say, it will say chicken poop is too "hot" too much nitrogen but our garden would say otherwise, but if you prefer, plan differently, duck poop is immediate fertilizer and fish food, they have such a short digestive tract that they packaged their waste to be eaten a second time, that is why it is hard to keep dogs away from duck poop, most houses here have ducks, I didn't buy anything, chickens and dogs just showed up, but everyone walking around and doing their little part just turns this into soil almost immediately, we throw at least 10 eggs out the door a day but it only ever looks like there are a few egg shells, but all of the soil looks like it has a little salt in it, eggs provide calcium to the soil and naturally detour pests. 

I am speaking too fast, let me paint a better picture, this area used to be barren, one desert colored flat almost slick surface, shaded in the afternoon by a lifeless dying avocado tree, since we have been throwing all these amazing energies here the avocado tree is now massive and gives us 500 avocados a year and below it is a green forest of 3 foot tall plants that are native, they do not have human food, there is a huge oregano plant that is constantly getting bigger and a lemonsilla that looks like 3 foot tall grass and smells like lemon, the rest have different little berries chickens eat, when we throw egg shells and coffee grounds it just sinks down in between the plants, the soil is constantly raising but the rain washes this new soil down, it piles up at the bottom of the property and when we need some soil to plant something we get it from here, it is a never ending supply, and it is packed full of everything plants need, it of course doesn't look like coffee grounds and egg shells and amazon boxes anymore, it is brown beautiful perfect soil, we could have made a compost area but we just didn't have time, we make money selling food, the leftovers are the chickens food, it turns out this is just already automated, one day we would love for this to be human food plants, but we have 100 human food trees, the short stuff just is what it is, lots of it is human food, lots is medicinal, the oregano is food and medicine, the lemonsilla is a pleasant tea and medicine, lots of the rest we don't know or care, the neighbors still have sickness in the animals, but they cut down the plants that they don't see a use in, we let the natural plants grow as they like and the chickens and the dogs eat things that seem useless but they are healthier than the homes that "clean" the soil. Men are always stopping by offering to "clean" which means to pull all of the plants out that are not human food or decorative. but a green yard is beautiful and much cooler. If you go anywhere in this area you will see nature providing the approximate same pattern of the same plants. There is the thorny one that you would definitely prefer not to step on in your yard, and there is the one that has rice sized yellow pods lining the long stem that when you brush past they stick to your skin with splinters.  They seem useless to us but the animals eat these things at certain times, your dog knows if he eats grass he will throw up, so when he eats grass you think man this guy is not smart, he doesn't remember, but he is listening to 1000 microorganisms in his tummy speaking to him through the Vargas nerve telling him what to do, if he eats pathogen and it will save microorganisms to clear the pathogen from the top rather than flooding water in the bowel to create diarrhea and flood it from the other end, the group decides to tell the dog to eat grass, a dog should be our yard guru, allowing his body full autonomy in nature, our chickens don't always eat the thorny rice, they are never hungry, but a few times a year the mother eats it and then the babies do.  And one of these things is a cure or inoculation for bidwell or a pathogen we are less aware of. Humans consider the act of overthinking everything to be the height of human achievement, but it is killing us. Your dog runs out the door every morning as exited as yesterday to inspect everything in the same yard as though it were new and exhilarating, and we think how stupid, he has forgotten everything, it is just the boring yard, but he is being given dopamine, and anticipatory happiness drug along with a picture of what to inspect first, his microbiome is collecting species that he has become short of by pooping, which is why your dog is so interested in poop. His amazing group of microorganisms is guessing there is a beneficial excess of a species we have become short of at the base of that tree but he is also checking if the tree needs nitrogen, if it does he will pee on it, if it is already full of nitrogen he will save that amazing fertilizer for another plant, and with each new revelation his mind is blown, he is flooded with serotonin, but he is only able to create this much serotonin (explosive happiness) because he is performing this job, he is pooping the microorganisms that make happiness and so if he doesn't go around gathering these things they will not be present, when is a human doing this task? When are you? What time have you taught your child to do this essential job? If the answer is you haven't, then the expectation of happiness or even functional is naive, the primary goal is the collection of these ambassadors. We have "evolved" to seeking happiness in photos and attention, but there is no possibility of gaining the microorganisms necessary to make serotonin in this.

But this is not prognosis or complaint, this is simply diagnosis and the medicine, the prescription is re-education. The church has made this one statement, that God is a male human that died and is returning but a building is our focal point for now, a cement building with compacted soil underneath it, with a parking lot full of compacted soil and zero human plants, this building is causing anyone who enters it to die. Their body is measuring the amount of the species and the amount of energy available for that species and deciding there is no right to life in this building, and so the more time they spend here the stronger the urge to die. If a person spends enough time in this situation they will predictably begin victimizing children, not because that is the nature of man coming out, but because we have signaled that body the need for death is very urgent. If we put the same human in a place of abundant human energies the idea would never enter his mind, this one organization has caused nearly every war, caused people to fight and murder for 2000 years, the inquisition, witch trials, nearly every country was "Discovered" by Catholics and the native populace enslaved and murdered almost to extinction based on these people not being human because they are not catholic, this is still going on this minute, in every country, they are forcing poor people to have children they can't afford causing these children to become dead and causing poverty, gangs and violence. The church is using fear to enslave you, and you're watching your children die, waiting for some guy to heal them when we just need to bring plants back into the home and get rid of the food with preservatives, You could go on for hours but that isn't even beginning to describe the life of the followers, I married a catholic, she cried every time she had an orgasm, she felt guilt for nearly every body function, her brother was a mass murderer, his penis couldn't get hard unless there were people burning to death in a building he had set on fire, the family each tortured each-other, the home was packed with food, everywhere like someone prepping for the end of times but the food was not human food, it was packaged food that could sit on a shelf with no refrigeration, because it was full of antibiotics, that kill every microorganism inside of you.

There wasn't one plant, the grass was perfect, front and back, but this was even offensive, their dream was to buy a condo, and have a kidney bean yard, in a sea of cement. This church did this to these people, this was not human error, the church has built this definition of existence. Built this specific lifestyle free of happiness or contentment for their personal gain. People with no hope will pay everything for fake hope. This is disgusting. Science stopped 2025 years ago, one religion claimed its science had repeatedly brought humans back to life, that would have trumped everyone else's science if it were true, Jesus said he was going to return now, in his disciples lifetime, He did not say in 2000 years, what He said was going to happen simply did not happen, this really doesn't mean that much, it means we have wasted 2000 years murdering humans and spreading lies and methods of human extermination to poor people and I'm a little angry about that but as long as we now pick up where we had left off whoever wants to continue to wait for Jesus is welcome, there is nothing offensive about any religions stories, most religions have stories about people somehow returning from death, and the fact is your microorganisms do not die, your body stops breathing but more than half of you is microorganism, the things you feel as personality ar mostly being decided by this microbiome or collection of tiny animals, and they not only continue to live after death but they will go on to live in another humans, if we begin fostering the life cycle again we would put our bodies in the soil where we live and our beautiful microorganisms would live on in our offspring. If we return to this life, bring the pants back, get rid of the antibiotics Jesus would be welcome to show up anytime, but we would probably teach him that sexuality and sin are not changed by guilt, and happiness is not changed by happy desires or faith or prayer, happiness is serotonin, Lactobacillus plantarum is the animal that makes serotonin, if we eat preserved foods we kill this amazing animal, if we poop into a tube that goes to a water treatment plant we kill this amazing partner, but if we surround ourselves with plants that we have evolved with for millions of years, plants that share our 

Consuming 10,000 calories of sugar at once would primarily attack the metabolic system and the digestive system. This excessive intake of simple sugars would lead to a rapid spike in blood sugar, triggering an over-production of insulin, potentially leading to permanent insulin resistance, and disrupting the body's ability to regulate energy properly.

That is an internet search result of what happens when you eat 10,000 calories at a sitting, it is 2;30 in the morning in the Caribbean, in front of the beach, people are still up partying, I can hear the music gently bumping, I live about 3 American city blocks back from the beach, I thought I might like to be closer but now I realize this was Gods mercy, the music is enjoyable from here, any closer and it would be different. I had kung fu panda playing quietly with the screen dimmed almost all the way down sleeping like a baby when I was awakened by the idea of Americans pushing themselves off of a cliff by the millions, doing something so violent to themselves that the damage is instantly irreversible and wanted to see if this is common knowledge in your countries cult information, and even though everything is screaming at you "EAT! EAT! EAT MORE!" This is your search engine result, (I have a vpn and am using an ipa address inside America, American banks and things with lots of security won't let you use a foreign ipa address) 

When I lived in Denver Co. in the Baker historical district, everyone would go to a bar in the morning, The first meal would be 3 super hoppy IPA's, a couple shots, deep fried mac and cheese balls, big pasta dish to soak up alcohol and make you look like a pro, but that is not the end of the attack, I would go for lunch, the place is Czech republic, Svíčková yum! Amazing, I would just order it with some cabbage instead of potato dumplings. They have amazing goulash and because it's Denver green chili at a czeck restaurant, lol with a little lettuce instead of crackers, so many amazing meals but I am walking over and now having dinner, and these people, my friends are still here, they have easily had 10 shots a piece, the culture is shots, someone shows up, shots, someone at the next table has a birthday, shot's, had some good news at work? shot's, your team just scored... the table is full of empty glasses, another 10 beers or rum and cokes and each time they start slurring they order something to eat, little carbs to sober them back up, they look like people who used to be attractive then ate fifteen thousand calories of sugar a day without any substantial physical activity, but their confidence level says they are 10 years younger and 50 pounds lighter, they are seeing something else in the mirror, I will tell them I wish I was there, that work suuuuux but I gotta stay at it, I will join them later, I'll have dinner with water, then go back for a couple more hours then 7 ish I'll come by, I'll sit with the owner and the staff and the tattoo artists, I am one of the cool people, I know all of the back stories, I know who does what drugs, I know were the illegal things are happening, I am accepted, I will drink white rum, it is distilled from sugar cane so it has a little sweet taste but the sugar was eaten by the yeast to make alcohol, when it turns into steam and goes through the long curled copper still pipe, it is a gas and only the alcohol can pass, everything else stays behind, I am Appalachian, when America made alcohol illegal Appalachia was where America turned for boose, makin shine and outrunning police it is in our blood, this flavor reconnects me to memories of my ancestors, I have no interest in any other alcohol, a shot of white rum in a glass of filtered water, it looks like I am one of you, two hours later I am going to ghost out, no-one likes this but if I say I am leaving the drunk one will try to tell me the story they just told 3 times in a row, someone else will say I must just do one shot with them before I leave, someone else may actually cry tears and claim I am abusing them by leaving, this is a mercy, they have been here since morning and will be here until morning, I will be doing 4 hours of cardio at 5 in the morning, no judgement's, I love these people, it is my intention to help them, my presence is meant to be therapeutic, everyone of these people have come to me and asked me to help them, some I have given their first session of training at the gym, of their lives, lots of people identify as athletic but it is just the clothing, they don't know how to use the equipment and are afraid to be caught on video using a machine backwards or something, or to find out they are simply physically incapable, they are "known" as athletic, they have a bicycle and a gym bag in their queen Victorian home and have people over often so they know about it, bicycle pub crawls are huge in Denver, you don't even ride a block before it is time to sit down for another 45 minutes.

This looks violent to me, foreign, I don't like to be near people I know when they  are crying drunk, telling a story they just told, returning back from the bathroom with pee on  them, they know it is there, it is their hope it will dry before anyone notices, asking me to borrow money when they had confided in me sober that they have ruined themselves financially with this  lifestyle, a beer is $7 but these tabs are in the thousands, and each bar will let you run up a tab till payday, and if you don't pay it all some can wait till next week, all of these people are broke, Saturdays is pool league, Saturday morning 7 am, it's finals, you can't play sober, you're a lousy shot sober, you have to get a couple shots in you quick, it's 7 in the morning, that's going pretty hard, but it is for the team, they have  a mandatory round of shots for leagues, I don't know if you pay the bar and in return they give you this or if they are saying thanks for bringing in 30 bar tabs, but you get free shots, I make several hundred thousand dollars a year, and my bar tab will be $5 but the rest of these people can't afford this, I can't eat any of this food or drink any of these drinks, water and a shot of white rum, everyone else is driving drunk as well, they all have previous dui's but the bars are close to home, at least half of these people are on some type of supervision, probation for something, they are in one of the most expensive neighborhoods in Denver but half of the people in Denver have been on probation "come on vacation leave on probation" the people say, you can drink all night and go to your breathalyzer test at 5 pm and blow clean, it seems pointless but they are getting billions in federal funds using numbers to represent national emergencies, they have become addicted to this money, fighting for pennies for teachers is hard and your competing against all of the other states dying for funding, but if you can convict enough people of smallish seeming crimes till it fits into a criteria of emergency defined by federal regulation you automatically get billions, so the police in this city are predatory. It's not working but it is the operating system for many decades and the people barely push back as long as the rules are just loose enough to get by. And these people would likely kill themselves in a week if you let them go full ham. Most are using drugs, mostly cocaine for some idiotic reason. I'm not saying other drugs are better, but a drug where you can't sleep, and can start having sex but cannot finish? that sounds like a designed hell. You can take a nap on molly and sex is amazing, but this is perfect, the point of extinct sex is the passage of disease, just grinding genitals till they are hamburger meat, then feeling like a looser, perfect.

I occasionally throw huge parties with 70 ish people and I am still in bed by 9 pm, up at 3 or 4, cardio at 5 but these people are drinking 15 hours straight, disco powder, some stupid name, I am offered a bump a few times in the bathroom, I am covered in tattoos I look like the guy, but I yell at them "Don't ever approach me with this creepy shit again and tell your coke buddies the same!" it is out of character for me, I am pretty easy going but being offered creepy shit regularly is gene therapy, if I am to help these people I must remain alive myself. I feel a ringing in my head when I go into crowded spaces, this is a warning system, we are not permitted to crowd into spaces, our bodies are constantly measuring our species energies. It is making decisions, it is evolving daily, if we have enough human energies in the yard where we sleep for the number of people present we will grow strong to thrive in this environment, if there are no plants with our food in them it will tell us to go sit with our friends and eat lots of sugar, the plants job is to put sugar into the dirt, it turns sunlight into sugar, this is so amazing to me, I can never hear it without being amazed like it is new information, how does something so simple know how to change sunlight into sugar? What the heck man? Dead people are not amazed by this, this is breathtaking and simple and the purpose is so beautiful, and so obvious, we are loosing ten billion amazing symbiotic animals every time we go to the bathroom, their job is to turn our food into the chemicals we run on, but there is no system to retain them, we have not evolved a system that sends a chemical Waring to these amazing creatures so that they retreat past a certain point and so we are now ten billion helpers short, we will die if this continues, but the plant needs these, the soil needs these, and we need these to return in massive numbers, we are an animal dependent on outside energies and so we must live in an environment that constantly supplies them, the plant puts the sugar into the soil, we put the seed, the ten billion seeds, then there is a genesis, an explosion, and now the soil explodes into life, you can almost see it moving with the naked eye, and then the tree that is giving us oxygen and removing toxic gasses explodes into life, seemingly growing whole new arms overnight, and this life where we sleep changes a measurement inside of us, our body is measuring, constantly measuring and when we see this explosion we too explode into life, we were feeling older, the passage of time was becoming very present, the idea of getting onto the floor to do something meant nothing, then it seemed like it was a thing one must plan out, to get back up off of the floor seemed very taxing an joints and muscles and tendons but now that has disappeared, it is no longer real, we cannot remember the difficulty, we are forever tied to the soil and to the tree, we feel what they feel, but only the present moment seems real, if the tree becomes sick we will become sick and now that is what was always real and if the tree dies and we don't have another then our bodies will tell us that as a person we have always loved tacos and super hoppy IPA beers, if we are already completely full of these and someone offers us these we will continue to eat when it is uncomfortable, it seems this has always been who we are, there is a voice inside of our heads reassuring us this is the case, if a doctor tells us this is threatening our health the enjoyment is too great to sway us, and then we put both the amazing microorganisms into the soil, we die of complications of eating too many tacos and drinking too much beer. The doctor is not going to write death by beer and tacos on the death certificate, that would be a detour-ant for the rest that still need to do this job, and so we say congenital heart failure, the moms horrible genes combined with the dads horrible genes added up to this unstoppable end, or diabetes, the silent killer, smh, nothing to be done, definitely not the thousands of beers and tacos, this is normal, surely if the native Americans had known how good beers and tacos were they too would have eaten these until they looked unrecognizable as humans. If I sit in a crowded area in America, I will become sad, these are not humans, occasionally a young person walks by, they look somewhat normal, they have not had time to do this to themselves yet, they came from a small town where they had human food growing at the house, now they're living in the city, they have discovered they love super hoppy beers and tacos man, every style of tacos, can't get enough. The rest are already unrecognizable. Barely able to move under their own power, and one hot day and a flight of stairs away from finishing this job. The heart is a pump, it has specification. if you exceed it that is it, it is only a matter of weather someone sees this and calls for help in time. But your body will not relent, the goal of your body is your death. The voice in your head seems very reliable, it is inside of you, surely it know's what I like, surely it is on my side, but it is not true, it is on humanities side, it is on the genome as a whole's side, but if it measures your home and comes up short of energies for your species, we are now the threat to the genome, we are threatening to salt the earth, so humans will become extinct there, and so the solution is your death, but to repair the soil you are storing the sugar the plants were supposed to be providing the soil. You may be aware you would cremate your body, or you would put your body in a coffin with a plastic lining keeping this sugar from the soil but your body has been using the same plan for millions of years, there are only so many tools available. 

This morning I have found a contradiction in your cult information, I've asked the american internet what was the role in microorganisms, and it has given me a beautiful logical perfect description with many opportunities to discover more, all correct, now if I ask the role of the microorganisms in the plants, same, all correct, now if I ask it if plants with human food in them share the microorganisms of the human it says absolutely no, they have separate microbiomes, but if I say we are loosing 10 billion microorganisms every time we poop, where are we getting the replacements it will say to eat human plants, which of coarse would be pointless unless human microorganisms were present, it also says fermented foods and bile transfers but there are only 3 microorganisms in any fermented food and we are looking for one thousand species in the numbers of trillions, Lactobacillus yeast and mold are used in the fermentation process but we have halted the fermentation when we package this so that all that remains are the Lactobacillus, or the food would continue to mold or ferment, but your gastroenterologist would tell you this is a gold mine of microorganisms. The transfer of fecal matter or fmt has been practiced for 1700 years in china and this transfer changing the recipient is amazing! But it is always temporary, we see a fat person eating less and becoming more like a skinny donor simply by changing the species in their tummy, this is such a great indicator of how little our "personality" comes into play, the church has us convinced that the nature of man is evil and out job is just living 80 years fighting this nature then dying when this is just microorganisms, if we swap them out we see a person transform in front of our eyes, but this is temporary why? Because we are still pooping out 10 billion every trip to the restroom, the job is to find a sustainable way of replacing one thousand species in the numbers of trillions daily, a dog sprints out if the house every day doing this job, inspecting one spot after another after another, eating things we consider suspect or even disgusting, an adults poop is full of dead microorganisms and antibiotics slipped inside of their food as preservative but a babies  poop is a microbiome gold mine, still free of antibiotics, try keeping a dog away from this, but understand this has come to this, we should be so surrounded by these energies that your dog should never have to normalize this, your dog is starving for something necessary, you are starving of the same thing, your culture has brainwashed you into thinking this is your nature, to exist in starvation. To never feel full of something you can't put your finger on and to be told what products to buy to try to fill the void next, keep going to some idiotic job, keep trying to impress people at the gym, keep begging for that promotion, keep begging the city for your right to drive, the right to park, the right to own the home you already bought, the right to speak, your body can't make serotonin, it can't make happiness, it cannot feel happiness ever if this microorganism isn't present, if it doesn't eat protein and poop this magic chemical into a storage area to be used when called apon, and you are starving, starving to death of this necessary human need, but you are thinking about taxes, they knew how many people would move to the city this year but they have chosen to make he roads  a little too small, they rebuild the entire road time after time but they don't make it the right size, it is always new but always in disrepair, you are driving around just waiting for the red and blue lights, being cut off by some asshole who probably wasn't an asshole till someone else cut him off, and the taxes are constantly going up and it seems like you are on the verge of realization of something greater, but it is always just out of reach. 

They are keeping your mind busy for a reason, there is no Illuminati, there is no need, if we exceed the species energy the gene has an ever evolving plan to irradicate our own species, we consider ourselves normal because we are not considering suicide by knife or jumping off a building but we are putting chemicals and sugar in our bodies at an unsustainable rate without considering this to be a suicide. A voice inside our heads is saying this is normal, and we consider this voice to be who we are, and that is difficult to explain, who we are is 3 different entities. 

There is your mind, then there is a million year old operating system that is pretty basic in function but has the most control if we exceed the species sustainability, and then the microorganisms have a definite voice that feels like you as well, a pregnant woman is going to get a craving for lactic acid, she is going to receive dopamine and a clear picture of pickles and ice cream, her body has done something violent, it has robbed her lactic acid, not spare lactic acid, she has robbed her own supply from muscle cells and red blood cells and now this is an emergency, and this amazing woman is going to crave these foods and most likely feel this is her craving, but this is a communication from the other two systems, the microorganisms have a nerve called the Vargas nerve, a huge cluster of nerves straight from the gut to the brain, to communicate what foods we need, so you probably feel a big part of your identity is the foods you like, where this would primarily be dictated by these other two systems, and would change based on weather the system is trying to evolve or to become extinct and would change based on the organisms populating your gut. Every time you poop 10 billion of these leave you and so we are meant to have a supply constantly returning to us, this re-population has been a if not the largest part of your feeling of purpose for millions of years, now we are going to jobs and watching other people do things on tablets in environments completely devoid of microorganisms but we all feel something very important is missing. If a human eats foods that have antibiotics in them to to keep microorganisms from eating them while they're on the shelf, they keep doing this job in your stomach, they kill the microorganisms, then if we live in an environment, a drywall and ceramic and varnish house, these things are either antibiotic themselves or we are regularly applying antibiotics to them, and so the feeling of loss is for this communication, telling us we NEED! A certain food, we are now just eating out of boredom, an American couple deciding what to eat is not an exiting exchange about the desires each persons body has expressed to them throughout the day as it is for all other humans, it is a fight, a boring frustrated "I had that yesterday!" "I just had that" We are angry at this because we know this is supposed to be a celebration but we have been robbed, the church has turned this into this mundane zombie march, all of the food has preservative, all of the food is dead, all of the food is killing you and so it is deciding death or death, one system is ok with this, but you and the microorganisms are not ok with this at all. we have not exhausted something and now our body is screaming chicken and citrus!! The feeling of accomplishment and satiation when there is great need is amazing. But the second thing a modern human is missing is feelings about anything, these tiny animals in your tummy tell us what we need to eat and then they actually eat it and then they secrete serotonin, Americans need sex with 7 different components to feel anything, diapers and poop and dildos and hitting and choking and your mate and tiktok and porn and thinking about someone else, they need entertainment that has 7 different elements to it to feel anything, professional football and 30 girls with huge boobs dancing almost naked and beer and a marching band with the loudest base and caffeine and v 10 engines roaring and a jumbo screen and $700 tickets $15 hot-dogs and doing the wave and fights and 300 pound men giving each-other concussions and snapping bones just for our inability to be entertained, to feel anything, and still it is not much, you were comforted being unhappy that happiness was coming, you are always waiting, the big party was going to be the thing that made you happy but you didn't know what to do socially and just spent the time not embarrassing yourself and then it passed and there was only a headache and now it is time to go to work and wait for happiness again, humans are supposed to be in nature all of the time searching, listening to the microorganisms tell them what tree to touch, what plant to smell, what to pick and what meat to find. This search if you were full of serotonin is mind-blowing itself, I am much more like your dog, I am blown away by every tree I see, I ride my bike for 5 hours a day, I would ride more but physical limitations like exposure and saddle soars stop me, the sky blows my mind, the birds, the horses, everyone is angry with cows in the road but I ride right into the middle of them, I am one of the cows now, I'll keep pushing through but I am not waiting, this moment is already perfect, there are 100 perfect moments but I am not waiting at any time, wishing I was to another part already. The sex here is very boring, pretty much always missionary, there is no choking or toys, but there is none needed, people who's bodies are packed full of serotonin and dopamine who have too few people where they live are blown away by this simple sex, every time it feels like it is too much, like you are going to just cross over into heaven it is so intense. no one wants for anything extra, no one is wishing they were with someone else. The feeling of being 100% satiated every moment is the human condition,  but when we start eating preserved foods we kill all the cool guys that make serotonin, and then the second system measures the number of guys returning to us and decides we cannot procreate and if we do make a child we must make a deformed child and we must destabilize the habitation. And so a person is saying something supportive and the wife is hearing attack, or the reverse, this system controls what you hear and what you think, what you desire.